OK I'm totally not getting in the Christmas spirit. Not that I ever really do. But I got my first 2 Christmas cards today. And I totally don't feel like sending any. I know I know bah humbug and whatever. But after my grandma made my poor sister cry at Thanksgiving (I found this out after I posted last time) Nee nee and I decided we're boycotting christmas at thier house. Going there is just not worth it. THey live in Iowa and it takes longer to get there then we would want to stay. Grandma and grandpa wont talk to Nee nee because she gave up her baby for adoption (4 years ago). THey really don't like me all that much because I had a drug problem as a teen. (wich was like 9 years ago) But Grandma always says she "really wants us to come down" This is because she wants to play with my babies. Well Grandma I'm not a baby making macheine purely for your pleasure. Get your own babies if you want them.
My other option for christmas it to go up to the UP to visit Jays grandparents. Wich I do love them. They're super old and sweet. And we don't see them very often. Cuz they live 8 hours away. The only downfall with this is that Jays parents also have a house there. They live here but the own a house up there. Don't ask me why. Everytime we go up there Jay's mom bugs us to stay with them. I do not want to do this for several reasons. 1 Jays mom smokes like a chimney. 2 Jays mom is kinda crazy and makes me really uncomfortable. 3 They would feed my children non stop sugar. 4 neither of Jays parents really like me 5 I just need my privacy. I wouldn't even want to stay at my moms house. I'm just a privet person. Jason's family just can understand why we wouldn't want to stay with them. The last thing is (and this may sound selfish) Jays parents spend a TON of money on presents. They get Jay ANYTHING he asks for, the kids too. Wich if they want to do that it's fine. My problem is that they never buy me anything I ask for. They get me things that I have no intrest in and that I would never use. Jay says I should just be glad that they get me something. Wich I guess it's true. But I feel like they do it on purpose. Or like they care so little about me that they just choose to get things that have nothing to do with me. Or like they think I don't know how to entertain or keep my house so they get me housewares that I would never use. Jay thinks I'm just paranoid. But why would they do this. I have given them lists. But never recieved a single gift from the list.
So yes there it is why I don't like christmas. Mybe I'll just stay home.
My other option for christmas it to go up to the UP to visit Jays grandparents. Wich I do love them. They're super old and sweet. And we don't see them very often. Cuz they live 8 hours away. The only downfall with this is that Jays parents also have a house there. They live here but the own a house up there. Don't ask me why. Everytime we go up there Jay's mom bugs us to stay with them. I do not want to do this for several reasons. 1 Jays mom smokes like a chimney. 2 Jays mom is kinda crazy and makes me really uncomfortable. 3 They would feed my children non stop sugar. 4 neither of Jays parents really like me 5 I just need my privacy. I wouldn't even want to stay at my moms house. I'm just a privet person. Jason's family just can understand why we wouldn't want to stay with them. The last thing is (and this may sound selfish) Jays parents spend a TON of money on presents. They get Jay ANYTHING he asks for, the kids too. Wich if they want to do that it's fine. My problem is that they never buy me anything I ask for. They get me things that I have no intrest in and that I would never use. Jay says I should just be glad that they get me something. Wich I guess it's true. But I feel like they do it on purpose. Or like they care so little about me that they just choose to get things that have nothing to do with me. Or like they think I don't know how to entertain or keep my house so they get me housewares that I would never use. Jay thinks I'm just paranoid. But why would they do this. I have given them lists. But never recieved a single gift from the list.
So yes there it is why I don't like christmas. Mybe I'll just stay home.
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