hairgirl

I am doing ok, get bummed being in bumkinville, but the kid is doing so fuckin good in school, she is really happy.I can't mess with that.I cannot remember a time when she did better, so as a mom, a sacrifice must be made.I know it's more important to let her shine right now, even if it kills me to be here.She has had such a hard life because of my mistakes, and her learning/emotional disability, and her father being non existant.It is always easier to run, but I have to stay here for her.I will drive forever to get to work everyday, if she will excel in school and socially.I remeber the kid in the class that was crazy and eveyone teased, well, that is my kid.She finally feels she belongs somewhere, even if I dont.Today, she told me about a project at school on Mars and that she went to the stables with our neighbor.Her eyes lit up as she told me, and it warmed my heart so much.It is so nice to see my baby happy for once.Sometimes I just wanted to die when she was having troubles, I did not know how to fix things.I pray that she keeps succeeding.All I wanted was for her to feel acceptance and now she does.I could not destroy that, I know it would destroy her.Sometimes when things seem their worst, we just have to look through the bad and notice the good.Today was one of those days.