ok...so it has been a little bit since a posting on my part.
So far, 2008 has not been the change from the shittiness of 2007 that I was hoping for. Then again, 2007 started out decently enough, so maybe it will take untill the summer for things to rock.
Here is a list of things not making life so awesome right now:
-Work. My job is really sucking the life out myself and everyone I work with. It's damn shame when a nice Ma and Pa shop turns into a corporate hellhole. Don't get me wrong, profits and growth are great and it's what we all strive for in business, but when the atmosphere in the workplace becomes regimented, stifling and loses that relaxed, comfortable vibe, it justs sucks. I've got new managers breathing down my neck, who have never done my job, but think they can tell me when work should be done and how long maintaince on my machine takes. And when I tell them the actual deal on what my job entails, they just give me a look like they think I'm making shit up. It's frustrating. I know how to do my job, and I do it really well. Get off my goddamn back and let me do my fucking job!
-ex girlfriend. ohvey. Well, The past three months have really sucked, because I still loved the girl and wanted nothing more than to fix things with her. All I got in return though was a lot of confusion. Never really got an answer as to why she ended things; although things are becoming clearer now. Turns out she's been dating someone at her work for awhile now, and I have a sneaking suspicion that she was seeing him during the final weeks of our relationship. That sucks to think about, but I've thankfully able to get over her the past couple weeks, so the sting isn't as bad as it could be. I can't do anythng to change things, so I decided I needed to stop torturing myself and not allow myself to access those feelings I have for her. So far so good. I had drinks with her a couple of days ago and didn't feel anything. I didn't freak out and go into a tirade and yell....which is good, cause now I can move on. Do I still care about her? yes. Do I wish things had turn out different? sure. Am I still attracted to her? of course. but, no sense in making self feel like shit about everything.
-band. yea....very frustrating times. So we just started playing shows again for the first time in five months and things are just as weird and messed up as ever. Last week, we had to ask our bass player (and my best friend) to leave the band. That was hard and really painful to do...I mean he's been my friend since I was sixteen. It was like stabbing the guy in the heart; I felt like such an asshole. But it had to be done. His playing on the bass was just not where it should be, and it felt like he was doing nothing to get better. On top of that, we still have no idea what we're doing after this show on Friday. We may not even continue playing. Yea, so one day at a time I guess.
Well, there is a small list. Naturally, there are other things, but no need to make this blog that long. Anyway, anyone who is reading this, please come on down to the KING COBRA this Friday 29th. My band, Rain City Shwillers is playing the official opening weekend of KING COBRA along with NEUTRALBOY, Andriod Hero and Bucklin. It's going to be awesome, so please make it down.
So far, 2008 has not been the change from the shittiness of 2007 that I was hoping for. Then again, 2007 started out decently enough, so maybe it will take untill the summer for things to rock.
Here is a list of things not making life so awesome right now:
-Work. My job is really sucking the life out myself and everyone I work with. It's damn shame when a nice Ma and Pa shop turns into a corporate hellhole. Don't get me wrong, profits and growth are great and it's what we all strive for in business, but when the atmosphere in the workplace becomes regimented, stifling and loses that relaxed, comfortable vibe, it justs sucks. I've got new managers breathing down my neck, who have never done my job, but think they can tell me when work should be done and how long maintaince on my machine takes. And when I tell them the actual deal on what my job entails, they just give me a look like they think I'm making shit up. It's frustrating. I know how to do my job, and I do it really well. Get off my goddamn back and let me do my fucking job!
-ex girlfriend. ohvey. Well, The past three months have really sucked, because I still loved the girl and wanted nothing more than to fix things with her. All I got in return though was a lot of confusion. Never really got an answer as to why she ended things; although things are becoming clearer now. Turns out she's been dating someone at her work for awhile now, and I have a sneaking suspicion that she was seeing him during the final weeks of our relationship. That sucks to think about, but I've thankfully able to get over her the past couple weeks, so the sting isn't as bad as it could be. I can't do anythng to change things, so I decided I needed to stop torturing myself and not allow myself to access those feelings I have for her. So far so good. I had drinks with her a couple of days ago and didn't feel anything. I didn't freak out and go into a tirade and yell....which is good, cause now I can move on. Do I still care about her? yes. Do I wish things had turn out different? sure. Am I still attracted to her? of course. but, no sense in making self feel like shit about everything.
-band. yea....very frustrating times. So we just started playing shows again for the first time in five months and things are just as weird and messed up as ever. Last week, we had to ask our bass player (and my best friend) to leave the band. That was hard and really painful to do...I mean he's been my friend since I was sixteen. It was like stabbing the guy in the heart; I felt like such an asshole. But it had to be done. His playing on the bass was just not where it should be, and it felt like he was doing nothing to get better. On top of that, we still have no idea what we're doing after this show on Friday. We may not even continue playing. Yea, so one day at a time I guess.
Well, there is a small list. Naturally, there are other things, but no need to make this blog that long. Anyway, anyone who is reading this, please come on down to the KING COBRA this Friday 29th. My band, Rain City Shwillers is playing the official opening weekend of KING COBRA along with NEUTRALBOY, Andriod Hero and Bucklin. It's going to be awesome, so please make it down.