Today I am breathing. though the air is thick and hot again in Toronto. But I am breathing nontheless because it's all I can do when the air doesn't move. gasping for air would only use up the little air that there is and too much energy and I would just pass out. see, if you wait long enough in complete imobility, you will feel the air start to move eventually. I think I feel a breeze. fuck it - I should just stop all this masochistic "tolerance" of the stagnant hot air and just fucking buy a/c. I'll spring for it in my next apartment - I can afford it now with the low rent. well, we'll see.. 
