I have been in a bummer of a mood since Thursday/Friday. I had a lame, boring weekend and mostly sat around or got errands taken care of. I don't mind being bored so much but I couldn't even get a hold of my friends for the most part. It was like they all fell off the face of the planet. For the most part, many of them have found significant others in the last few months. I recently introduced my friends D and L to one another and I actually saw the cartoon hearts floating around them. That is great since both of them deserve to be with someone cool. However, that also means that my close single friends have been reduced to 1 person, and he was gone to Southern Oregon all weekend. Therefore, me being curbed all weekend.
My mood has not been made better by my psychotic allergies either.
Perhaps just being bored and feeling slightly ill has caused my bad mood but I honestly think I am just jealous that nearly all my friends have someone and I don't. I have managed to go a good two years without freaking out too much or worrying more than my hormones dictated but I am finally starting to get self-doubting in regards to my romantic life. There may be some hope in the near future as my friend who I mentioned in an earlier journal entry supposedly really digs me. That would be pretty awesome if she wasn't with someone. While they may be on the rocks, I don't want to be -that- guy and try to weasle her away from him. That would result in possible rebound drama and I don't know if that is a good idea. Cupid be damned. I think I am done ranting now. fuck
My mood has not been made better by my psychotic allergies either.
Perhaps just being bored and feeling slightly ill has caused my bad mood but I honestly think I am just jealous that nearly all my friends have someone and I don't. I have managed to go a good two years without freaking out too much or worrying more than my hormones dictated but I am finally starting to get self-doubting in regards to my romantic life. There may be some hope in the near future as my friend who I mentioned in an earlier journal entry supposedly really digs me. That would be pretty awesome if she wasn't with someone. While they may be on the rocks, I don't want to be -that- guy and try to weasle her away from him. That would result in possible rebound drama and I don't know if that is a good idea. Cupid be damned. I think I am done ranting now. fuck
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And I know exactly what you mean...all my friends have someone too, and it feels like sometimes they rub in my face. And when I finally found a guy to like, guess what...he has a girlfriend! Cupid's a bastard.