Damn, I really hate feeling like this. I feel completely like totally worthless shit. And I really don't ever want to feel like this ever again. I want to be the one on stage getting my MVP jersey, I want to be the one who is in a successful relationship, I want to be the one who people know the name of. O want to...
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rabidbuttons:
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fire:
keep your chin up!
keep your chin up!I definitely want to spend more time on the site. Get to know more people, really get into conversations too. Not to mention really get into those groups that I have have joined. I have been a member off/on since 2005 and I really haven't done much of anything except look at pictures, which is fine. But I definitely want to do more than just...
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I really can't stand being around these overbearing, lazy, miserable people. I don't want to deal with this anymore. Sometimes I can feel the life running out of me. Even if I had some semblance of a good day, out gets thrown right out of the realm of possibility that I will continue to have one later. How fucked is that? Well I'm sure that...
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I want some good flirting! I want to feel that good feeling. I love it, and miss it. I would ask if anyone else feels the way I do, but I doubt it. And it's unbecoming of a gentleman. But the three of you who actually look at my blog make me very happy. That you very much. 
eroticgeek:
Thanks for the kind compliments on my blog. I am not used to such kindness. It really means alot to me. 
*hugs* Oh and the testimonial was nice, too!
*hugs* Oh and the testimonial was nice, too!Feeling lonely, and want someone to talk to. But not sadnor depressed. Imagine that.
amarena:
Loneliness sucks. Ick!
Keep your head up, honey!
Keep your head up, honey!
eroticgeek:
Awww do not be sad. Here is a hug. *hugs* I posted pictures of my new piercing on my blog finally. The site was still giving me trouble, but I got it done.
I miss online flirting, or offline flirting for that matter. I really enjoy that kinkiness. It's been too long, I'm such a sexter LoL maybe I will find a sext buddy, or get to do some of that online flirting.
Sometimes, I feel simply murderous. I just want to kill everyone, feel the blood between my fingers, and I want to do it with just my hands, and a knife. But I hate that I every feel like that. I feel like Im turning into a monster, and it makes me so unhappy. But its hard to think of what happiness is much anymore. It...
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eroticgeek:
I feel that way all the time. Sometimes I wish murder was legal.
gundamfury:
Yeah, thanks for listening. I appreciate it.
Seems that everyday I wake up I have to take inventory of all the things that are wrong. Why is it that before I even start the day, there's one-thousand-and-one things wrong? It does get more than a bit overwhelming. Especially on Wednesdays with the conference call, and having the opp the night before. I have been more than a little bit drained when I...
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I am so very very annoyed! Why te hell won't this woman leave me the HELL alone!? I swear, she's like a fucking child! She was watching out the window as I pulled up to the house, and soon as I grabbed to door-knob, she want to know what I'm looking for!? What kind of non-sense is that?! And she's constantly hounding me about jobs,...
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Right now, I'm having the hardest time thinking of how I'm going to make this 3x3 happen. I'm really starting to think that I am useless. I have pretty much tried to contact every one of my sources, and 99% of them have not only shot me down, but have also pretty much ignored me. I cannot fathom this, it is really ridiculous, and annoying,...
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I don't know what made me take a look at what they have been saying about me, I really don't. But the fact that they are still talking about me is kinda funny. How is it that they are so enamored by shit that I have done, and have such a wrong idea about what I am and what I am about, yet they think...
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I'm very slightly miffed right now. I've been looking over my finances tonight and hoping that I could see myself moving out into a nice apartment in the near future. But it's not looking too well right now. I've seen that with the subtraction of my current bills, I will be coming up ~$110 short per month on the rent. And then if that's the...
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kannalis:
I'm glad to hear that youv'e grown up and quit worrying what people think about you so much. I think that was always one of my major hangups with you. Of course you know if I ever did care what people thought that I never let it effect what I did. I behaved like a lady even if I didn't/still don't always look like one.
Could you look into a different apartment complex possibly? I know that there are several places in the area that are cheaper. Can Susan contribute anything to that? I know that she'll be out of work for like three months but that might be helpful as well before and after. Also I don't know what kind of school you're going to, or if this is an option for any of your courses, but what about trying to do online classes? That would free up more work hours and you could just do the work in your down time instead of actually having to have the physical time off to go to class? Just some thoughts. ^.^
BTW Never let anyone tell you that you are immature. You aren't immature you're just still fun. They are old people.
Could you look into a different apartment complex possibly? I know that there are several places in the area that are cheaper. Can Susan contribute anything to that? I know that she'll be out of work for like three months but that might be helpful as well before and after. Also I don't know what kind of school you're going to, or if this is an option for any of your courses, but what about trying to do online classes? That would free up more work hours and you could just do the work in your down time instead of actually having to have the physical time off to go to class? Just some thoughts. ^.^
BTW Never let anyone tell you that you are immature. You aren't immature you're just still fun. They are old people.