i leave to visit my family in arizona for the holidays in exactly one week, and there's so much to get done before i go.
the songs are coming along well, though. and i'll probably find some time to see the lemony snicket movie.
it's bloody cold here. hope this finds you well and warm.
the songs are coming along well, though. and i'll probably find some time to see the lemony snicket movie.
it's bloody cold here. hope this finds you well and warm.
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and yes, it is very much a consideration along the lines of that performance project, about which my feelings grow increasingly mixed. i do think that considering representation matters, and is relevant, and yet i am in many ways unsatisfied with the subject matter. i think part of the reason why i am experiementing so heavily with form right now is because i find my content less satisfying than i anticipated. i kind of feel like i can't really get into the space i want to be - into an anonymous space - because i am so named in my skin 'round these parts. does that make any sense at all? so, yeah ... it is strange. i am also discovering not so much stage fright, but a certain contempt for observational eyes ... well, contempt is too strong but - something between resistance and resentment. now, the real question is, am i just projecting my ambivalence about myself onto them? this i do not know for sure. what i DO know is that part of it is the internalized judgement and silencing of my near and less than dear. oh my, how i ramble on ... but i think you get it. i think you oh so know.
wishing you much musical success, as i've long known you have the genius. have fun in the az, precious. and wishing you and your boy much togetherness in your affianced holiday times.
Have fun back in the warm weather with the family.