People keep asking me about you every day. They ask where did you go, why arent we friends anymore, why am I not angry with you anymore. To tell you the truth im not mad at you, im mad at the choices you made so selfishly that kept me from my one true dream, because of you I never got to see my son or daughter once. I knew you since we were kids. We never met, but we treated each other like family. You asked for my help back then with your addictions and I tried my best.
Over the years that followed you and I grew so much as people. I watched you overcome the most crippling situations and now you are working hard and raising 4 kids all by yourself. You have overcome drug & sex addiction, torture,rape, and a whole lot more, but the one thing you could never get over was control. You controlled all the "friends" around you. When my son and daughter were being born I wasnt able to be there because You said no and all your friends backed you up. Hell even my fiance backed you up only because you two shared a home and she didnt want you upset.
So the time came and you said you just werent ready for me to visit...you said I would have time in the future to see them..that was a lie. A month later and I had lost them both and all you could say was oh sorry. I will never forgive you for that, but I do not hate you. I'm glad of the woman you have become. I care about you a lot and have tried to have you in my life, but it is too painful. Your own 4 year old daughter saw that and told me she was sorry. A 4 year old saw the pain that you could not.
She asked me why I couldn't be here daddy too since I planned on being the daddy of the twins. Then she said the one thing that made me laugh for the first time in months. she said,"oh it's cause mommy can be a real bitch sometimes hehe." she told me as long as I always remained her uncle even though she wasn't blood that she would be happy. To this day she still calls me to tell me she loves me randomly. You never called once after the twins were gone. That is why when all these people ask about you I say you chose to leave and that is how it must stay.
Over the years that followed you and I grew so much as people. I watched you overcome the most crippling situations and now you are working hard and raising 4 kids all by yourself. You have overcome drug & sex addiction, torture,rape, and a whole lot more, but the one thing you could never get over was control. You controlled all the "friends" around you. When my son and daughter were being born I wasnt able to be there because You said no and all your friends backed you up. Hell even my fiance backed you up only because you two shared a home and she didnt want you upset.
So the time came and you said you just werent ready for me to visit...you said I would have time in the future to see them..that was a lie. A month later and I had lost them both and all you could say was oh sorry. I will never forgive you for that, but I do not hate you. I'm glad of the woman you have become. I care about you a lot and have tried to have you in my life, but it is too painful. Your own 4 year old daughter saw that and told me she was sorry. A 4 year old saw the pain that you could not.
She asked me why I couldn't be here daddy too since I planned on being the daddy of the twins. Then she said the one thing that made me laugh for the first time in months. she said,"oh it's cause mommy can be a real bitch sometimes hehe." she told me as long as I always remained her uncle even though she wasn't blood that she would be happy. To this day she still calls me to tell me she loves me randomly. You never called once after the twins were gone. That is why when all these people ask about you I say you chose to leave and that is how it must stay.