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This pretty much sums up how i'm feeling today.

I wrote a new poem tonight because i've been feeling a little off. I don't know if it's sadness creeping up on me or what, but I needed to get a bit off of me chest. So here it is. It's called What If I'm The Monster.


Fed lies so many times it's bent and twisted up the truth.
Swallowed up their ether like it's...
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I'm so relieved to be home tonight. For the past few days i've been babysitting my sister's children while her husband went out of town and she worked. I Think the thing that got my the worst though was their puppy. Every hour on the hour he would bark 2 inches in front of my face until I woke up and then he'd go right...
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Well I probably won't be recording any more songs until I set up a studio myself. The guy that was helping me quit talking to me out of the blue so there's not much I can do there. My mom will be fully healed from her surgery in a little less than 2 weeks. She has healed really fast so far and the doctors are...
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My mom had her surgery today and everything went well. The doctors say she will be able to come home in about 2 days. Also the recovery time went from 3-4 months to a month and a half so we're all really happy about that. Once she heals from this surgery they are going to go back in and do reconstructive surgery. all in all...
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Yesterday my friend's air unit exploded in her room so I helped her clean up and paint. It took over 6 hours and I must say I am sore as fuck. Everything aches, but at least her room isn't a mess anymore, lol. My sister's surgery turned out well and she's recovering nicely Now I just need my mom's surgery to go well on the...
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I'm really happy right now. I finally finished the song i've been working on. The title will probably be A Soldier's Fight is Endless. I wrote it about all the veterans who aren't receiving proper treatment after their tour of duty is over. I've seen my father having to fight and struggle just to get care and it really pushed me to write this one....
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Started writing a new song a few days ago and i've finished the first verse. I hope this one won't be like the last few where I hit a wall and can't find anything to write about. Once I figure out the chorus i'm pretty sure the rest of it will unfold quickly. Things have been going alright the past few days. The nightmares haven't...
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Lately i've been having nothing but nightmares. The worst is that they are so vivid that they seem real. When I wake up I can still feel everything that happened in my dream. In one nightmare I was being eaten alive by a pack of wild animals and when I woke up I could feel wounds in my flesh. It felt as if my skin...
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