Weight of the World by Saliva
Love to be beside you, the way you smell,
The way your lips feel and your fingernails.
The way your fingers crawl up my spine,
The way you always make me the last in line.
I carry the weight of the world as the past is unfurled, but I won't stop to wonder.
Going through this life on my own made me as cold as a stone.
I'm a ship going under.
And I'd tell you this, but I don't know how.
I'm caving in and I'm falling out and I can't resist
And I can't rebound with the weight of the world as the world falls down.
It's the way you thrill me, then pull away.
The way you seem to kill me a little more each day.
And it's what you're thinking in your twisted mind
The way your body trembles when it's next to mine.
I carry the weight of the world as the past is unfurled, but I won't stop to wonder.
Going through this life on my own made me as cold as a stone.
I'm a ship going under.
And I'd tell you this, but I don't know how.
I'm caving in and I'm falling out and I can't resist
And I can't rebound with the weight of the world as the world falls down.
This pain I think about it everyday, it tells me I'm never gonna get away.
I know it's over, but I can't escape memories and how to face another day.
Guess you can kinda figure out my mood by now... Started school again Tuesday, and my hours got cut at work again. Well, not just me, the entire store. See, a Walmart moved in down the road a couple weeks ago and we're just now feeling the crunch. During the first week, sales were down 30%, but they levelled off so they're only down 10% from normal, but being the penny-pinching bastards that they are, the regional managers cut hours anyway right as we hired new help... go figure... She is kinda cute though, so I won't mind training her (like I need another girl to worry about...
). And, yes, I realize my mood hasn't been bright and sunny lately, but theres not a lot I can do about that. Dispite my best efforts, my life is in a tailspin and until I can get some things under control, I'm too stressed out to have a good time and meet new people, so for now I have to avoid human contact... As hard as that is in college, I'm going to give it a go... Maybe go without deodorant a few days...that would work... 
Mat and Holly came by the other day to cheer me up... We watched MST3K a few hours and had a good time. I'll put up some pictures once I get around to it, just lazy right now. I really miss being able to spend time with people I care about... Clint especially... He's coming home soon, but he doesn't have his assignment or orders yet so he's not sure when exactly... All I know is we're going to get drunk as shit the day he gets back and go meet some girls or something... Hell, as against my morals as it is, I could go for a one-nighter.
But, after all the shit I've put him through with my problems over the years, he's finally repaying the 'favor' by telling me about his latest issues... See, he was a virgin when he left for basic training, and he hooked up with a girl on base there... They got close and eventually got a hotel room and, well, you know how that goes... So, bye bye V-card (as he calls it). Now, since he'll probably never see her again (this was months ago btw) he hooked up with a new girl at the base he's stationed at now... and, ofcourse, the same thing happens eventually...only its happened a few times at this point... Then, yesterday, his old girlfriend back home called him up to chat. One thing you have to understand about Clint is that he's very dedicated to his friends, and he will very rarely lie to us... and never to me, I hope They had decided to break it off temporarily while he was away, so she found herself a new boyfriend and things were spiffy... However, he WASN'T aware that she was saving herself for him when he got back... And, well, when she asked...yeah, lets just say she wasn't too pleased... So he calls me up at the verge of tears and wants my advice... I say not to worry about it. She had the same chance he had, and she never really made her intentions known, just assumed he would know, so he's not in the wrong here! Right? ...Oh, comon, don't give me that look!
So whats going on with you lovely people... and *gasp* do my eyes decieve me? Has Invy returned?!
Time will tell...
Love to be beside you, the way you smell,
The way your lips feel and your fingernails.
The way your fingers crawl up my spine,
The way you always make me the last in line.
I carry the weight of the world as the past is unfurled, but I won't stop to wonder.
Going through this life on my own made me as cold as a stone.
I'm a ship going under.
And I'd tell you this, but I don't know how.
I'm caving in and I'm falling out and I can't resist
And I can't rebound with the weight of the world as the world falls down.
It's the way you thrill me, then pull away.
The way you seem to kill me a little more each day.
And it's what you're thinking in your twisted mind
The way your body trembles when it's next to mine.
I carry the weight of the world as the past is unfurled, but I won't stop to wonder.
Going through this life on my own made me as cold as a stone.
I'm a ship going under.
And I'd tell you this, but I don't know how.
I'm caving in and I'm falling out and I can't resist
And I can't rebound with the weight of the world as the world falls down.
This pain I think about it everyday, it tells me I'm never gonna get away.
I know it's over, but I can't escape memories and how to face another day.
Guess you can kinda figure out my mood by now... Started school again Tuesday, and my hours got cut at work again. Well, not just me, the entire store. See, a Walmart moved in down the road a couple weeks ago and we're just now feeling the crunch. During the first week, sales were down 30%, but they levelled off so they're only down 10% from normal, but being the penny-pinching bastards that they are, the regional managers cut hours anyway right as we hired new help... go figure... She is kinda cute though, so I won't mind training her (like I need another girl to worry about...
). And, yes, I realize my mood hasn't been bright and sunny lately, but theres not a lot I can do about that. Dispite my best efforts, my life is in a tailspin and until I can get some things under control, I'm too stressed out to have a good time and meet new people, so for now I have to avoid human contact... As hard as that is in college, I'm going to give it a go... Maybe go without deodorant a few days...that would work...
Mat and Holly came by the other day to cheer me up... We watched MST3K a few hours and had a good time. I'll put up some pictures once I get around to it, just lazy right now. I really miss being able to spend time with people I care about... Clint especially... He's coming home soon, but he doesn't have his assignment or orders yet so he's not sure when exactly... All I know is we're going to get drunk as shit the day he gets back and go meet some girls or something... Hell, as against my morals as it is, I could go for a one-nighter.
But, after all the shit I've put him through with my problems over the years, he's finally repaying the 'favor' by telling me about his latest issues... See, he was a virgin when he left for basic training, and he hooked up with a girl on base there... They got close and eventually got a hotel room and, well, you know how that goes... So, bye bye V-card (as he calls it). Now, since he'll probably never see her again (this was months ago btw) he hooked up with a new girl at the base he's stationed at now... and, ofcourse, the same thing happens eventually...only its happened a few times at this point... Then, yesterday, his old girlfriend back home called him up to chat. One thing you have to understand about Clint is that he's very dedicated to his friends, and he will very rarely lie to us... and never to me, I hope They had decided to break it off temporarily while he was away, so she found herself a new boyfriend and things were spiffy... However, he WASN'T aware that she was saving herself for him when he got back... And, well, when she asked...yeah, lets just say she wasn't too pleased... So he calls me up at the verge of tears and wants my advice... I say not to worry about it. She had the same chance he had, and she never really made her intentions known, just assumed he would know, so he's not in the wrong here! Right? ...Oh, comon, don't give me that look!
So whats going on with you lovely people... and *gasp* do my eyes decieve me? Has Invy returned?!
Time will tell...
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who what when?
i think i need to come out of my hiding heh...hello there stranger
be happy