grrlpunk

so my mom is here visiting. she's been here for 3 days now and will be here for another 7. it's not that we don't get along, we actually have a pretty good relationship. it's that when she's around, i'm like, so much closer to the edge than i normally live. i'm defensive, jumpy, reactionary, and generally not at all like my happy, goofy self.

i think i have this huge chip on my shoulder where my mom is concerned. it's strange (or maybe not so strange), but something, could be criticism or not, that anyone else in the world would say to me and i would take it in stride, she can say it and it gets under my skin like you wouldn't believe - or rather it starts to get under my skin, but before it's allowed to fester, i shoot back with some defensive (see above descriptions of shitty behavior) remark. of course then, not only do i feel annoyed at her but then i also feel guilty for snapping.

ugh.
ugly cycle.
i need to just get over it. it's really pretty awful because she's super cool. we're very different but she's very respectful and supportive of my decisions. hell, how many moms brag about their daughter having the best tattoos of all her friend's kids? she always makes sure there is vegan versions of all the dishes she makes. she even accepted a b-day present from me on her 50th to get a tattoo!

okay.

so i'll get over it.

lol, like anyone else cares how my mom and i interact.

night!