I am so completely and utterly depressed right now.
I should never ever ever be given any kind of holiday ever ever again. It gives me an excuse to think too much, which is an exceptionally bad thing.
I just got through thinking about all the women that I've had crushes on this year and it distresses me that I don't have anything to show for any of it. I'm starting to think I'm actually an obsessive compulsive with attention deficite disorder thrown in to annoy me!
I feel like a 16 year old. Its like I'm now getting all the hormone shit that I didn't really notice when I really was 16 and I don't like it.
I am 23 and I'm already worried about the rest of my life. I'm the kind of person who most would describe as 'clingy' and I'm down with that, I understand what I am. The problem is, I don't think that I'm ever going to find anyone who wants to be clung to, I need someone who wants to be adored. Maybe its just me, and maybe I shouldn't assume, but I thought that most people would relish the chance to have someone fall at the feet and come running at their every call. Am I completely off the mark with this assumption? Am I so diluded and old fashioned that this new modern would of 'love' is passing me by?
Oh yeah and in the next couple of days I'm going to submit a photoset to the SuicideBoys group entitled Explorer. Read from that what you will.
I should never ever ever be given any kind of holiday ever ever again. It gives me an excuse to think too much, which is an exceptionally bad thing.
I just got through thinking about all the women that I've had crushes on this year and it distresses me that I don't have anything to show for any of it. I'm starting to think I'm actually an obsessive compulsive with attention deficite disorder thrown in to annoy me!
I feel like a 16 year old. Its like I'm now getting all the hormone shit that I didn't really notice when I really was 16 and I don't like it.
I am 23 and I'm already worried about the rest of my life. I'm the kind of person who most would describe as 'clingy' and I'm down with that, I understand what I am. The problem is, I don't think that I'm ever going to find anyone who wants to be clung to, I need someone who wants to be adored. Maybe its just me, and maybe I shouldn't assume, but I thought that most people would relish the chance to have someone fall at the feet and come running at their every call. Am I completely off the mark with this assumption? Am I so diluded and old fashioned that this new modern would of 'love' is passing me by?
Oh yeah and in the next couple of days I'm going to submit a photoset to the SuicideBoys group entitled Explorer. Read from that what you will.
Things will get better though, and if you tell yourself that you won't bother with girls for a while then chances are that you'll suddenly acquire one.
Also you're a FILM-MAKER and that's a really good way to meet people (and girls). trust me on that one.