I think I've just had what alcoholics refer to as a moment of clarity.
I just caught site of my body in a mirror and was appalled and discusted with what I have become of late.
I had kind of gotten used to the bad skin (I live in London and its a pretty dirty place, not that that is an excuse...) and until about two years ago I had gotten used to being quite skinny.
I don't know why but until I was about 19 I hovered around the 11 stone area, and for a 6'3" man thats not much. Then when I turned 19/20 I suddenly began to gain weight, 4 stone to be precise.
I promised myself I would keep it in check. Its not that I'm fat as such but it is not a pretty sight to behold the body I hide under these black clothes.
About an hour ago I had the above mentioned moment of clarity and it drove me to tears. Now you have to know that I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm just venting my thoughts or I might do something I regret.
If anyone has anything they think is an appropriate way to make me happier and healthier I would appreciate the help, any help.
Cellulite and boys do not go well together (in fact cellulite and nobody goes well together) and I no longer want to feel sick when I look in the mirror.
Dx
I just caught site of my body in a mirror and was appalled and discusted with what I have become of late.
I had kind of gotten used to the bad skin (I live in London and its a pretty dirty place, not that that is an excuse...) and until about two years ago I had gotten used to being quite skinny.
I don't know why but until I was about 19 I hovered around the 11 stone area, and for a 6'3" man thats not much. Then when I turned 19/20 I suddenly began to gain weight, 4 stone to be precise.
I promised myself I would keep it in check. Its not that I'm fat as such but it is not a pretty sight to behold the body I hide under these black clothes.
About an hour ago I had the above mentioned moment of clarity and it drove me to tears. Now you have to know that I'm not looking for sympathy, I'm just venting my thoughts or I might do something I regret.
If anyone has anything they think is an appropriate way to make me happier and healthier I would appreciate the help, any help.
Cellulite and boys do not go well together (in fact cellulite and nobody goes well together) and I no longer want to feel sick when I look in the mirror.
Dx
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a solution i finally had to face, which is not sexy but is practical, is cut out the excessively indulgent foods and run your ass off. diet pills and diet fads will not sustain any necessary momentum.......don't do the gym thing. with all the mirrors in most gyms it is just a self esteem road block waiting to happen......go out into the world and run........and do sit ups. it is that simple. reinvigorate your metabolism and melt yourself down to where you are happier. since early june, i have lost 24 pounds...i have ten or fifteen to go, but it has become a habit to be increasingly more active. also, cut down on carbohydrates.
......or heroin. i have yet to see an overweight heroin addict. i recommend running and such, but it is important to have options.
im on the fucking atkins diet.
seems to be working too...
meet on friday? nice one. Pint for me.
OF FUCKING WATER!!!