grinningator

I am feeling down and depressed today! It has been 5 months since i lost my Mom! Money is tight right now! Real Tight! Dad is still up in a nursing home in Ohio, and my sister has control over everything there, and here! She has power of attourney! So basically i am left here in Florida as caretaker of the property until medicaid comes and takes the place, or i can find some bank to rob to buy the place! LOL I helped my Gramma and Grampa in this house and also my Mom and Dad in this same house! I have become attached to it! It will be a sad day, if i have to leave! It also would have been my ex, and mine, anniversary on the 8th, and that would have been 18 years. So i have been without a serious relationship, or any relationship for that matter, with a woman now for 7 yrs. I am not a love em and leave em type person, and she is the one that screwed around, and filed for divorce papers anyways! So i think i am going to become a monk or something? LOL My van is sitting in the driveway with a flat tire, no gas in it to go anywhere, the cupboards are empty, and its been raining every day here! Sorry for all the negativity! I am usually upbeat and all, but everything just seems to be crumbling in around me! You know what i think my problem is? I am too nice! Nice guys finish last! I need to start being an asshole! Start being the kicker, instead of the kickee! I feel like friggin Charlie Brown, because every time i go to kick the ball, Lucy pulls it away, i fall on my ass, and everybody laughs at me! It's time to pick that ball up, and smack Lucy in the head with it, and sit back and laugh while she cries her eyes out! I think it is time for THE GATOR to stop grinning! It is time to show some teeth and claws! Grrrrrrrrr! ~~~~,~~,`< THE GATOR