Just another blog on sex.. what can I say I love the topic..
I am losing confidence in my sexual abilities which is quite strange for me.
For the first time I also am almost wishing for a slightly bigger dick too. I mean I am ok with my size and all and i have been told I guess it feels really big even though it is not really above average in length.. and the girth is not big either.. but I get told it feels huge... I dont know.. would rather have it acutally BE huge instead of just feel though.. funny it was not media that has these thoughts in my head but the words from girls on this site that have got me doubting my length...
Normally sex is the one thing I am cocky about. I know I am good at and can please whatever woman I am with but I am starting to feel as though I am not doing it quite to par with what they want.. or what Dawn wants. I also feel that because some of my exes talk so highly of me I have this hipe in my head that I have to keep it up. I have to keep finding new tricks and stuff to stay on top of the game.
After this long break in sex and not having it I just yeah.. I dont feel like I am that good at it or that I wont be that good at it again after the break. One thing is when it comes to rough sex which I love.. I guess I an NOT rough enough for the woman I go with. Basically when it comes to Dawn (the woman I love) it seems I am not.
While home on leave we were going at it and when it came to biting her tits and stuff she was like go at it hard and stuff like that which I was happy because I like a woman who will tell me what she wants so I can do it the way she likes but at the same time.. I just feel as though I was failing her all around. She has pretty much just been using a vib for the last couple months so she is use to that thing that does not fault in is pleasure down there so I was working my ass off down there and having to just.. i dont know.. just felt as though I was failing her as a lover and it really sucks. After a bit she was like ok lets stop before I give you a heart attack since yeah... I really was working hard...
Though I also did it with a girl who said I was great too. Well let me enplane more onto this. Me and Dawn are NOT together even though I want to be with her. There are reasons for this so yeah we just are not together even though we love each other. So she knows that I can go and do other girls she just does not want to know about like I dont want to know if she does any guys. Well one night while on leave I was dancing with Tif and Dawn walked in front of tif and asked her to come here so she walked like three steps forward and I guess all she said to tif was for teh best sex of your life take two steps back again. So tif stepped back and we started to dance again. Mind you Dawn was drunk. Either way Tif already wanted me and after hearing this she was wanting to give me a try even more. Well the next night me and Tif went out to eh club since Dawn was no were to be found which pissed me off.. anyways me and tiff went out and had a great time and then before I dropped her off we had a quicky in the car. It was short and that was on my fault because she had me so turned on but she did not mind because she said she was at a point of pleasure where she could not breathed so she was happy I got off.. we both were just like Wow that was better then drugs.. neither of us have done anything in a while so it was a great feeling...
Thinking of her and that quicky of sex make me almost feel as though I still know what I am doing but over all I just feel as though I have slacked in my skills. I know I need to work on lasting longer again. It is just hard to work on that in a room for a dudes. I mean one of the best ways for a guy to do that is Jack off for a long time as is dont just go for the goal. Get close to coming and relax with slow strokes for a bit tell he calms down and go up again just to stride out and everything... well when you in a room with 4 other guys you dont have the privacy time to do that.
Back to Dawn now. It still bugs me that I cant do it the way that a rough sex girl wants it. I think if I am drunk I could do it no prob since while drunk I get into this wild crazy dirty talking completly different self fuck mood that yeah.. I just dont get.. but while sober.. I am NOT a rough guy over all. I dont want to bite to hard and hurt her.. which I guess even when I do start to bite hard in my head it is to light for her... I dont know.. just want to get better at it and cant do anything about that while over here. Something like that falls into the Practice part of my motto.
Anyways that is my blog that is way to random and is probably hard to fallow even. O well ttyLater
~Bob
I am losing confidence in my sexual abilities which is quite strange for me.
For the first time I also am almost wishing for a slightly bigger dick too. I mean I am ok with my size and all and i have been told I guess it feels really big even though it is not really above average in length.. and the girth is not big either.. but I get told it feels huge... I dont know.. would rather have it acutally BE huge instead of just feel though.. funny it was not media that has these thoughts in my head but the words from girls on this site that have got me doubting my length...
Normally sex is the one thing I am cocky about. I know I am good at and can please whatever woman I am with but I am starting to feel as though I am not doing it quite to par with what they want.. or what Dawn wants. I also feel that because some of my exes talk so highly of me I have this hipe in my head that I have to keep it up. I have to keep finding new tricks and stuff to stay on top of the game.
After this long break in sex and not having it I just yeah.. I dont feel like I am that good at it or that I wont be that good at it again after the break. One thing is when it comes to rough sex which I love.. I guess I an NOT rough enough for the woman I go with. Basically when it comes to Dawn (the woman I love) it seems I am not.
While home on leave we were going at it and when it came to biting her tits and stuff she was like go at it hard and stuff like that which I was happy because I like a woman who will tell me what she wants so I can do it the way she likes but at the same time.. I just feel as though I was failing her all around. She has pretty much just been using a vib for the last couple months so she is use to that thing that does not fault in is pleasure down there so I was working my ass off down there and having to just.. i dont know.. just felt as though I was failing her as a lover and it really sucks. After a bit she was like ok lets stop before I give you a heart attack since yeah... I really was working hard...
Though I also did it with a girl who said I was great too. Well let me enplane more onto this. Me and Dawn are NOT together even though I want to be with her. There are reasons for this so yeah we just are not together even though we love each other. So she knows that I can go and do other girls she just does not want to know about like I dont want to know if she does any guys. Well one night while on leave I was dancing with Tif and Dawn walked in front of tif and asked her to come here so she walked like three steps forward and I guess all she said to tif was for teh best sex of your life take two steps back again. So tif stepped back and we started to dance again. Mind you Dawn was drunk. Either way Tif already wanted me and after hearing this she was wanting to give me a try even more. Well the next night me and Tif went out to eh club since Dawn was no were to be found which pissed me off.. anyways me and tiff went out and had a great time and then before I dropped her off we had a quicky in the car. It was short and that was on my fault because she had me so turned on but she did not mind because she said she was at a point of pleasure where she could not breathed so she was happy I got off.. we both were just like Wow that was better then drugs.. neither of us have done anything in a while so it was a great feeling...
Thinking of her and that quicky of sex make me almost feel as though I still know what I am doing but over all I just feel as though I have slacked in my skills. I know I need to work on lasting longer again. It is just hard to work on that in a room for a dudes. I mean one of the best ways for a guy to do that is Jack off for a long time as is dont just go for the goal. Get close to coming and relax with slow strokes for a bit tell he calms down and go up again just to stride out and everything... well when you in a room with 4 other guys you dont have the privacy time to do that.
Back to Dawn now. It still bugs me that I cant do it the way that a rough sex girl wants it. I think if I am drunk I could do it no prob since while drunk I get into this wild crazy dirty talking completly different self fuck mood that yeah.. I just dont get.. but while sober.. I am NOT a rough guy over all. I dont want to bite to hard and hurt her.. which I guess even when I do start to bite hard in my head it is to light for her... I dont know.. just want to get better at it and cant do anything about that while over here. Something like that falls into the Practice part of my motto.
Anyways that is my blog that is way to random and is probably hard to fallow even. O well ttyLater
~Bob