greenlemon15

so it has been awhile since i really kept up any type of blog, mainly due to consecutive 18 hour days and well the lack of a good place to blog. I have started many in the past and given up just as quickly. I'm sure ill forget every now and then but I really would like to keep more of my thoughts in just one place for once. For some reason I always come back to SG and maybe this can be my place to let loose. To complain to the masses about the shit that just drives me nuts or even to gloat about some wonderful things that occasionally happen to me i.e. my 11 month anniversary with my lovely amazing gf tomorrow...actually in 7 minutes.

I find lately that my work, retail and music guy for a sports team, is less and less satisfying. I feel underwhelmed with my duties and little appreciation. I know they like having me there, I know they want me there, and most importantly I know they NEED me there but somehow you can only hear "you're doing a great job and we all know it" so many times before it just feels forced. Words loose all their meaning when repeated at nausum. I get more enjoyment from not doing my job and trying to fix stuff at home, my computers, and getting no where then making my routine $1300 sales.

I am getting more annoyed that no one listens to me at either job. I have so many great ideas yet they all get swept under the rug. But the moment one of the others says anything remotely like it they are praised and practically immortalized for thinking outside the box. Hell one of my associates STOLE my latest $1300 sale and the managers just say well the store got the sale. FUCK THE STORE. My self and one other guy ARE the store. I am literally MONTHS ahead numbers wise and on pace to do better than last year had it not been for a month of stepping back my numbers to help everyone else. FUCK THIS JOB! I am being strung along to think ill get this promotion or that but really that are gonna sand bag me until I threaten to quit, which i cant do.

BTW I am amazed that I have typed all of this with only 5 spelling errors in the dark. I haven't typed this much in awhile and thought I lost my touch....good for me.

Well enough for tonight I got another long annoying day ahead of me....at least I have dinner with my baby to look forward to...oh yea now its officially 11 months and now 6 errors...


off to play a little more Build-a-lot on my iphone....such a great game


night