So i have been away for some time now and I apologize. Life has been crazy at best. Things are going well for the most part just insane.
I'm writing from Red Roof Inn in Maryland, I live in CT, because my grandfather is back in the hospital for the 3rd time in about a week. He had a heart attack and the Dr's actually told us last weekend he was going to die. Well thank god he didn't BUT 3 times in a week and we said fuck it we have to come down so my dad and I just got in the car and drove. Odd thing is I was coming to MD on Friday to see the other side of my family anyway. I always feel at home in MD even if I am here under not so great circumstances.
So this all of the sudden leave made my job not all that happy. I have been in a rut for the last few weeks though. My sales are down, not terrible but down. My attitude has been shit. It's not that I told like my job I just have too much on my mind and that is due to two girls that I work with.
There is girl 1 - Heather, who started working there like 2 months ago and we became bf/gf really fast, too fast. So I told her look I don't want to rush things, lets go slow, no sex, and get to know each other. So we were just dating and no longer bf/gf so what does she do. Goes out and fucks some guy...yea. Somehow I have no flipped a shit yet and we are still dating but she seems relationship retarded and it is getting old. She keeps telling me about her ex's and when guys hit on her and shit so last night I told her to stop. I know it happens your hot but wtf! why would you tell me this? We are fucking now and its great, there are a lot of parts of us dating that work, and just as many that don't.
Gril 2 - Danelle. I have worked with her for a year and half now and not until I started dating heather did I have the balls to actually talk to her. Well ever since then that is all we do, talk talk talk. We talk for a few hours AT LEAST everyday. We once spent 19 hours straight talking. The conversation is amazing, we never have a lull, she is smart, beautiful, and the girl I WANT to end up with. We both had some bad relationships and didn't want to rush anything and she was part of the reason I told Heather we need to slow down cause I'll never cheat and I needed to see how things would play out. Well every time I bring up that we should date she shoots me down. Even if we spent half the night making out, oh btw when we kiss it is the best hing in the world, I have kissed a lot of girls and NO ONE comes close to her. She even said if it weren't for us being the best kissers we wouldn't have this problem. Oh right this problem, well she has some family issues and a lot of anger and hate in her heart and she feels I'm too nice and we can't work. She sees me as nice cause when she is sooo down and pissed I just do the opposite. I am like that with everyone but with her I'm always nice...hmmm maybe she does have anger problems, but so do I. I am not this perfect nice guy she thinks I am I just act a little nicer when I'm around her cause I think she is the most amazing girl on this earth. I mean if you were around someone like that wouldn't you always be in a good mood?
So that has been bugging me for a few months now. My 2nd job is slowly screwing me over cause well I got moved to a new department and I hate it. I've done it before but I don't like it. I make it sound all official I work for a fucking baseball team and I'm being moved from Scoreboard to Music, may not sound like a big switch but it is night and day. Not too mention in a year the team might be gone woooo
or not we have no idea lol.
I'm still not the same since my best friend moved to Texas with his gf
Though at work I have two new best friends in Kevin and well Danelle. The 3 of us are awesome together it is soooo much fun.
Well I should probably go now. I'm in the bathroom typing so I don't wake my dad and my ass is going numb from this seat. I'll update more soon.
At least I get a week in MD!
I'm writing from Red Roof Inn in Maryland, I live in CT, because my grandfather is back in the hospital for the 3rd time in about a week. He had a heart attack and the Dr's actually told us last weekend he was going to die. Well thank god he didn't BUT 3 times in a week and we said fuck it we have to come down so my dad and I just got in the car and drove. Odd thing is I was coming to MD on Friday to see the other side of my family anyway. I always feel at home in MD even if I am here under not so great circumstances.
So this all of the sudden leave made my job not all that happy. I have been in a rut for the last few weeks though. My sales are down, not terrible but down. My attitude has been shit. It's not that I told like my job I just have too much on my mind and that is due to two girls that I work with.
There is girl 1 - Heather, who started working there like 2 months ago and we became bf/gf really fast, too fast. So I told her look I don't want to rush things, lets go slow, no sex, and get to know each other. So we were just dating and no longer bf/gf so what does she do. Goes out and fucks some guy...yea. Somehow I have no flipped a shit yet and we are still dating but she seems relationship retarded and it is getting old. She keeps telling me about her ex's and when guys hit on her and shit so last night I told her to stop. I know it happens your hot but wtf! why would you tell me this? We are fucking now and its great, there are a lot of parts of us dating that work, and just as many that don't.
Gril 2 - Danelle. I have worked with her for a year and half now and not until I started dating heather did I have the balls to actually talk to her. Well ever since then that is all we do, talk talk talk. We talk for a few hours AT LEAST everyday. We once spent 19 hours straight talking. The conversation is amazing, we never have a lull, she is smart, beautiful, and the girl I WANT to end up with. We both had some bad relationships and didn't want to rush anything and she was part of the reason I told Heather we need to slow down cause I'll never cheat and I needed to see how things would play out. Well every time I bring up that we should date she shoots me down. Even if we spent half the night making out, oh btw when we kiss it is the best hing in the world, I have kissed a lot of girls and NO ONE comes close to her. She even said if it weren't for us being the best kissers we wouldn't have this problem. Oh right this problem, well she has some family issues and a lot of anger and hate in her heart and she feels I'm too nice and we can't work. She sees me as nice cause when she is sooo down and pissed I just do the opposite. I am like that with everyone but with her I'm always nice...hmmm maybe she does have anger problems, but so do I. I am not this perfect nice guy she thinks I am I just act a little nicer when I'm around her cause I think she is the most amazing girl on this earth. I mean if you were around someone like that wouldn't you always be in a good mood?
So that has been bugging me for a few months now. My 2nd job is slowly screwing me over cause well I got moved to a new department and I hate it. I've done it before but I don't like it. I make it sound all official I work for a fucking baseball team and I'm being moved from Scoreboard to Music, may not sound like a big switch but it is night and day. Not too mention in a year the team might be gone woooo
or not we have no idea lol.
I'm still not the same since my best friend moved to Texas with his gf
Though at work I have two new best friends in Kevin and well Danelle. The 3 of us are awesome together it is soooo much fun.
Well I should probably go now. I'm in the bathroom typing so I don't wake my dad and my ass is going numb from this seat. I'll update more soon.
At least I get a week in MD!