greenkat

I dont have to go to work tomorrow. I am attending an all day workshop which should be cool. had a great therapy session-here is an excerpt from the writing I had to do as homework
"I am ready to stand up and say no! I will not continue one more day of my life feeling less than what I am. I give respect and deserve respect. Not a surface level respect (which you are real good @ doing,) but a behind my back, true respect and admiration for being who I am. For taking a stand against the bullshit, to break away from the dysfunction and unhealthiness that has had me trapped since I was a child. I know it may have been considered, but never actually acknowledged, that I was raised to be unhealthy. I was taught to bottle up my emotions, go through the motions, and think about all the good things!! I have never been able to do that. I have always allowed my thoughts to go where they naturally went. All over the place. Using deceptive ways to get what I want. That my needs would not be spoken, they would be met through manipulation, by being nice, by doing things for other people. And not because it truly felt good. "