greenjelly

fuck....
i feel sick.....

arghhhhh
this isnt fair.
ya know when you plan something so much,your attitude, what your'll wear,what your gna say down to like,the way your gna pronuce your words....?
And then all of a sudden it doesnt matter anymore.
Its not gonna happen.

maaan this is too fucking hard.
ive got like a band of heat running up my spine, from the sickness of dissapointment.
This isnt fair.
Why cant i stick at anything..?
When i say im gna do something-why cant i keep it up?
The only things i wanna say- and mean-are things that don't want to be heard.And are going to cause me hassle...

FOR FUCK SAKE THIS ISNT FAIR...
i wish i was a differnt person.
someone who didnt care bout anything.
who doesnt get viciously jealous...

i really know what i need rite...ooo and i have one of the 3.
1.a fag..
2.A fite
3.a shag.

And i will fuckin aqquire the other 2 soon enuf.

x