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I always want something important to post when I do a entry here. I've looked at a lot of my previous entries and realized that I do a lot of whining. I guess it's who I am. But that's why I moved to Greece, to discover who I am, and also to be in a safer environment. So now I know three things about me:...
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tilpacer:
Good luck with the gambling thing. Or the preventing there of.
tilpacer:
Almost everyone has asked if internet hugs count. I am sorry to say only physical hugs count towards the total. Internet hugs are still appreciated though.
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anaphalaxis:
Where'd you go!? Come back!!
niobe:
Happy Holidays! kiss
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Sorry people, but I got another venting blog here.. Once again the lesbian has made me act immature and high-schoolish. She complimented me on my hair this past Friday, after twice asking her to ignore me. I know she was instigating it and I basically lowered myself down to her and you know what? I will always lower myself to her, thing is though, it's...
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tiger_fodder:
Thanks for the birthday wish!
belllla:
I've driven further with less motivation. wink
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brightredscream:
I'm doing well sugar - how are you doing? It's been a while!
thefreak:
Other than a thumb drive, I'm not too sure.

Also, 'grats on the weight loss and whathaveyou. biggrin

-TM
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Obama is an idiot. McCain is an idiot. All of them have been liars to me why should i trust them now?
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tiger_fodder:
Agreed! smile
janegeraldine:
We did actually meet via SG. I hope you hang in there. You seem like such a sweet guy, I am sure you will find a lovely lady to be sweet with. Thank you for stopping by.

&hearts
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I sit here utterly alone facing temptation to overdraw my account and bounce some payments all for the thrill seeking of getting more money. I'm highly frustrated for putting all this effort into myself and not seeing any payback whatsoever. I'm ready to give up because it simply doesn't make any sense to go and put your money in a machine in hopes of getting...
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And so the saga continues, but I'm happy to report that the end of this particular phase of my life is almost over. The belly is almost gone but it's still visible...just 20-30 lbs more..doesn't sound like much but once you've reached a certain weight or whatever, the work becomes harder. That coupled with my own tendency to sabotage my dieting habits..i.e. soda and junk...
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thefreak:
You've had quite the full plate these days, it would seem. Hope everything's sorting out w/you for the better, gay voice and all. biggrin

-TM
brightredscream:
Thank you so much smile
I cannot wait until it's done though!
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Ok, this hasn't been exactly on my mind the whole time, but I gotta vent this out. A few weeks ago, I found out that I work with a SuicideGirl. I asked her if she was, she said she has four sets.She was drunk. Didn't tell me who she was or if she was still active. Cool. I'm not interested in befriending her or seeing...
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brightredscream:
Thank you so much for the birthday wishes smile
varuka_salt:
Saw your CE post. You're on the right track about the god thing. smile
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I don't have much to say other than when I get below 200 lbs, I'll give you all the full story. But I promised myself after the last blog that once I got below 230, I'd post again. So here I am a month later one ounce below 230 after I fucked up a muscle in my knee and gained weight and stopped exercising completely....
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geekpat:
hey! how are you?

it's been a while, but not that much has been going on for me. i got a motorbike, getting better at riding it (i now commute to work on it. yay). ummm... actually, i think that's about it. ugh, that's kinda boring.

how is your knee now? and how are things going? hey, and i know what it's like to have an obsession over someone. i'm still trying to deal with the worst mistake i've ever made when my ex and i broke up over 3 years ago. i still miss her and without exception think about her every single day. i've gotten therapy for that too. therapy is good, but you probably already know that it's you who will have to do the hard work, getting out of mental ruts, changing the way you think, letting go of thoughts and such that you might not want to let go of. sucks sometimes though.

and yeh, changing your mental self-image. sometimes it's like how the fuck am i supposed to do that?! you know, you've been looking at yourself in the mirror for so long, and you're supposed to change your opinion?! but everybody probably is their own harshest critic, and other people probably don't see you as badly as you see you (at least, that's what i think/tell myself).

i don't know. just remind yourself that it's really easy to be hard on yourself, but it doesn't mean it's correct.
brightredscream:
I will this weekend most likely smile
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Going to the gym seems to be the only thing that's been keeping me from cracking and I had actually stopped going a couple weeks before my birthday. This is truly a sickness and I am so sorry for doing this to her but its the only way I could find to help better myself. Finally I am going this Saturday to a therapist to...
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brightredscream:
Thank you for your incredible comment ♥

I really appreciate it biggrin
lethaldose:
Sounds like a painful ordeal you are going through right now. It has got to hurt like hell. I'm sorry my friend. I wish I had some advice or words of comfort but in reality I need advice myself. Sometimes it is just so hard to let go of someone. I have found that years go by but the feelings stay. I do what I can to try to forget but to no avail. Maybe it is because she always manages to keep herself in my life no matter what I do. I'm doomed. Damn, here you are hurting and I go and dump this on you. Sorry about that. Just do what you have to do to make it through, that is all I can say. That is all I can do myself.

Because of my poor health I have really let myself go. But I have too lately been trying to work out to regain some of the strength and stamina I once had. It's hard work, I know. Keep it up my friend.

I wish you the best in everything. I hope these times pass soon for you. I will probably be gone for the next month or two before I return if I return, but mostly I just wanted to say "hi." Take care of yourself, ya hear?
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Not really the time for an update but I just wanted to say I'm alive and in an obsession with a 23 year old lesbian who has given me what I've needed for so many years, yet has made me so bitter cause she thinks I'm in love with her 'like that'. 1-2 months, and I'll show yas what I'm talking about...halfway there!
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brightredscream:
Hmmm this is confusing....
lethaldose:
Happy birthday my missing friend!