okay so im stealing leeh's journal entry from the first... and editing it into my life....
My life as told by Fiona Apple
2. Paper Bag Hunger hurts, and I want [him] so bad, oh it kills 'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up.
I was (and still am) afraid to get too close to anyone. When i like someone i tend to analyze everything...sometimes i end up inventing things in my head to explain why they dont call me back..when they really are just busy. i'm paranoid.
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
3. The First Taste Im building memories on things we have not said.
This is the story of my life..i meet someone and realize how wonderful they are and start to create all these wonderful what if's and things in my head. there is so much i want to give but i always end up scaring them off.
4. Fast as you can, baby run free yourself of me. Fast as you can run because you cant endure me..i want to love someone until it dosent hurt me. i will smother you.
5. The Way Things Are I couldn't take the embrace of a real romance, It'll race right through me
"I dont really want to be happy. I dont think I could take it. Have you ever received a really great birthday gift that was so grand you didnt know what to do with it? No? Have you ever looked outside at the sun when your eyes hadn't quite adjusted to the light? In both instances you are receiving something thats so grand you cant accept it. This is called Hedonophobia-fear of pleasure. Fun fact: Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- fear of long words." - leeh.
i dont know if i can add to this. im too scared to be loved..because if i love someone, and they hurt or leave me i can blame myself..if they love me and i love them,...well i dont really know.
6. Heaven please send to all mankind/Understanding and peace of mind./ But, if it's not asking too much/ Please send me someone to love.
"OK she didnt write this but she does do a good rendition of it. i think its pretty self explanatory."-leeh.
yep. thats it.
well on good news... im going to see head automatica tonight. im excited... but im going alone so we'll see what happens! ::shakes it::
My life as told by Fiona Apple
2. Paper Bag Hunger hurts, and I want [him] so bad, oh it kills 'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up.
I was (and still am) afraid to get too close to anyone. When i like someone i tend to analyze everything...sometimes i end up inventing things in my head to explain why they dont call me back..when they really are just busy. i'm paranoid.
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
3. The First Taste Im building memories on things we have not said.
This is the story of my life..i meet someone and realize how wonderful they are and start to create all these wonderful what if's and things in my head. there is so much i want to give but i always end up scaring them off.
4. Fast as you can, baby run free yourself of me. Fast as you can run because you cant endure me..i want to love someone until it dosent hurt me. i will smother you.
5. The Way Things Are I couldn't take the embrace of a real romance, It'll race right through me
"I dont really want to be happy. I dont think I could take it. Have you ever received a really great birthday gift that was so grand you didnt know what to do with it? No? Have you ever looked outside at the sun when your eyes hadn't quite adjusted to the light? In both instances you are receiving something thats so grand you cant accept it. This is called Hedonophobia-fear of pleasure. Fun fact: Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- fear of long words." - leeh.
i dont know if i can add to this. im too scared to be loved..because if i love someone, and they hurt or leave me i can blame myself..if they love me and i love them,...well i dont really know.
6. Heaven please send to all mankind/Understanding and peace of mind./ But, if it's not asking too much/ Please send me someone to love.
"OK she didnt write this but she does do a good rendition of it. i think its pretty self explanatory."-leeh.
yep. thats it.
well on good news... im going to see head automatica tonight. im excited... but im going alone so we'll see what happens! ::shakes it::
I personally think that my "random thoughts" entry was my best. Believe it or not I was a little leery about the Fiona entry.
With album did you buy? If you like her you should listen to Rachael Yamagata. (If you don't already.) She'll hold you over until Fiona's record label gets off their collective asses. Her album was suppose to come out a year ago.
Maybe I shouldn't have dropped out of college and gotten that degree in journalism. Oh, well.