gratia_artis

dario and i just broke up..........this just doesn't feel real to me. i am beyond sad right now. don't worry, he's not a bastard. we still love each other...it's just that we haven't been truly happy together for some time now, and we came to this realization together. we've been lying to ourselves, basically. so nobody pity me or hate dario. he is a good soul and he will always have a special place in my heart. we are best friends just as we were lovers. we're still celebrating our anniversary because it DOES mean something to us. it's just going to be different. our cat is so upset...that might sound silly to some, but sofie is acting sad and depressed all i've been able to do is cry. i just need friends right now. i don't need pity, i don't need (nor do i want) anyone to say that dario is a bitch, cause he isn't. we just didn't want to prolong our suffering. i am only 22, and if i'm not truly happy in a relationship, i don't want to marry that person. that would be unfair to both of us. i want us to both be happy, and if that doesn't include being together as a couple, then so be it. yes, it hurts, and yes this feels like it's just a bad dream. but it's real. it's too real.

this sucks i'm going to go drink guinness and cry some more.