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This is what security, perfection and bliss is supposed to feel like.

I haven't slept in more that 40 hours and I'm running on caffeine and heineken.

I'd try and run away but now I've made sure that I've tied myself down.

I can't complain, everythings been working out for me lately....except my hair color, but whatever, I'll live.

I thought I never would, but found some kind of happiness in someone who makes me feel totally comfortable to be myself around, I can do/say anything around him and it's great. He's so awesome.

I know I said I wouldn't date, but come on, it's been over...
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Only through death do you become ageless.

He was everything I wanted; dark hair, dark eyes, tattoos, piercings, not skinny or built, but kinda sorta perfect.

We shared glances, my cell phone rings, you recognise the ring tone as I put it on ignore...I scribbled down my e-mail address on a piece of paper in hopes that you'll write.

I got the e-mail today and for some reason I can't reply. Maybe...
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Kinda makes you realize who your real friends are...



I should be angry, but your "thank you" note is in the mail because you're never too old to learn a worthwhile lesson.

ok so I'm thinking it's baout time for a new journal entry.... I really don't have much to write about though, because I've been brutally sick for the past 4 days and haven't actually left my house, not once. It's pretty sad and I feel like shit all the time...from being sick and from not being able to go out [I missed gay pride ]...
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I hate the golden griddle.
I hate my hair.
I hate the heat.
I hate wearing sunscreen.
I hate tanned skin.
I hate having to wake up.
I hate having to sleep at a decent hour.
I hate it when you sit beside me on the bus.

I love distance, I want more of it.

I don't answer the phone.

It's because I don't care.

I've strapped myself into other peoples vices and have been there for so many years that the metal has rusted through, and into my skin, it's a part of me, you're a part of me. I lie, I always have, I wanted one thing...and got it...at the expense of myself. I wish it came with a receipt, I want a refund.

It's about time I wrote a new journal entry....so here goes a whole lotta nothing!

I've been a little pre-occupied lately, between my obsession with the Sims 2 and the little kittie that I'm playing mommy too. It's about 3 weeks old and is the sweetest thing, found the poor little thing in the backyard, it has an eye infection in both eyes so tomorrow...
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Haha the Kreator show (last sunday) was great, partially because it rocked (no shit, it was Kreator) and partially because it was fucking free cause my ass was on the guestlist!

I got me and Jenn each a ticket for the sounds of the underground concert this summer. I can't wait, I will see Gwar...I promised myself i would after i got kicked out of...
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