grafhelwig

ahh the weekend is upon me. gonna do some house cleaning and relaxing. i will probably be here on SG alot during the evening hours. I have noticed one thing here lately, when i post in my groups it seems like i kill the current thread. i know i am a bit odd and quirky but i didnt see myself as a killjoy. i'm just having fun, speaking my mind, my thoughts, and perhaps revealing things of me i probably shouldnt. i consider myself open minded and know that most people here are as well. i am really looking to blow off steam and just have some outright fun. i still dont feel compfortable about putting some of my original writings on here, but i will soon over come that barrier and do so. i am used to people making fun of my appearance and things like that, but my written works are a different story. those are small capsules of what is inside of me. things that at one time i kept hidden from all others. i never wrote to fame or glory, more for therapy back in my days of high school and college when i was the outcast. somehow i have managed not to be the outcast but seen as the mentor and often as the life of the party. i still dont know how the latter came into existence. there are time still when i draw into myself and shun the outside world and that usually leads to people think i am evil. am i evil? i am but human and deep inside do we all not have the evil tendency within us?