This was a crazy weekend.
Both Good and Bad!!
The Good....my friends! I was able to enough my time off with friends. It was a weekend that was spent pool side with a Panda Bear and getting cuddles from a che-wee!
The Bad....reality smacked me back. First off my youngest son was in place he should have been. He tried to be honorable and stop a fight between these boys he knows. The kid he was trying to stop pulled knife on him and tried to cut his throat. Wesley was on top off him and punched the kid square in face. As he got off the kid to get away the kid stilled tried to slash at him. Thus getting Wesley across the back and the kid another punch to the face. The knife kid ran to this kids car and speed off. In doing this another kid was hit by the car and had to surgury on his leg - 2 pins and 3 breaks later. Wesley has thankfully been scared by this and truely hopes he reconsiders who he is spending time with.
As the agreement he called my and I made the horrible choice to drive drunk. After getting that I felt pretty sober but know that I made a bad choice. If I was in better control of my drinking I would not feel so damn bad about it but as a parent I had to get there. The fear of harm to your children is a horrible reality check. ( both from outside and from you )
So now I am truely going to work on getting myself together.... I feel like shity parent. My job keeps me way but I know that I can make a better effort to be there for them. I just wish that their bio parents would make the same effort.... In all I am disappointed with my self.
There are other things troubling me but this is the one that hurts the most. I know it seems stupid to post shit like this here but I need to talk about somewhere.
Both Good and Bad!!
The Good....my friends! I was able to enough my time off with friends. It was a weekend that was spent pool side with a Panda Bear and getting cuddles from a che-wee!
The Bad....reality smacked me back. First off my youngest son was in place he should have been. He tried to be honorable and stop a fight between these boys he knows. The kid he was trying to stop pulled knife on him and tried to cut his throat. Wesley was on top off him and punched the kid square in face. As he got off the kid to get away the kid stilled tried to slash at him. Thus getting Wesley across the back and the kid another punch to the face. The knife kid ran to this kids car and speed off. In doing this another kid was hit by the car and had to surgury on his leg - 2 pins and 3 breaks later. Wesley has thankfully been scared by this and truely hopes he reconsiders who he is spending time with.
As the agreement he called my and I made the horrible choice to drive drunk. After getting that I felt pretty sober but know that I made a bad choice. If I was in better control of my drinking I would not feel so damn bad about it but as a parent I had to get there. The fear of harm to your children is a horrible reality check. ( both from outside and from you )
So now I am truely going to work on getting myself together.... I feel like shity parent. My job keeps me way but I know that I can make a better effort to be there for them. I just wish that their bio parents would make the same effort.... In all I am disappointed with my self.
There are other things troubling me but this is the one that hurts the most. I know it seems stupid to post shit like this here but I need to talk about somewhere.
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argene:
Glad your kids are okay!
drpepper23:
Wow that is scary. I'm glad Wesley is okay, and I hope the other kid will get what he deserves.