gracie

They don't have a word for how I'm feeling. I feel like a bottle cap sitting on table while a big speaker blasts music too loudly and the capis forced to vibrate and bounce around chaotically not being able to rest.
Just like that only complicated with other gooey emotions that make me want to cry all the time.

I had the most awful day at work. If I could have gotten up and left, and spent the day hiding in my apt I would have. Everything and everyone irritated me. I needed to be alone.

Being here by myself is so much harder this time around. I never realized how much I love having Mike around me.. His deployment just started. I'm so fucked.