gothikai

I have always been someone who forgives & forgets easily. Technically it's the other way around, but I do it on purpose. I allow myself to forget things to make it easier to forgive the people who were shitty to me.

There are some things that I can never forget, though. I remember when I found out that Blake cheated on me with Celia. I remember when I found out that Ryan cheated on me with Haley. And, I'll probably always remember when I found out about Gabriel & Mary...& Angelina.

*I can't blame Blake or Ryan, btw, because I cheated on both of them at some point in the relationships.

And though I will probably never forget these things, I have moved on in a lot of ways.

I don't hold any grudges against Blake. That was a long time ago & now I just wish we were still friends.

I do still hold some grudges against Ryan, but that's because he made a baby with me & didn't stay by my side. However, I now know that I could never be happy with Ryan, so in all honesty, he did us both a favor.

And as for Gabriel, I forgive him. It was a long time ago (before I was pregnant/after we got married) & not that big of a surprise to me anyway. He seems pretty sorry, so I'm going to do my best to let it go, but I don't think I'll ever forget it completely.