kagome slept all through the night last night in the playpen & katana stayed on her pallet in the living room. i finally got a good night's sleep. i still woke up & did a lot of chores, but i guess i'll always do that. at least i'm mostly done now, just got the dishes & clothes left because i'm not in the mood for...
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so i'm starting to really doubt my ability to do this whole single mom thing again. i wake up & it's straight to work for me. i hate that. i don't like having to change 2 diapers, dress & feed 2 babies, dress myself, and so on. i barely have time for a fucking shower. i don't think i've had a real clean feeling in...
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turbulence:
You can do it. The kids get older and your mom can help soon again.
This situation will work out slowly. But it will work out
This situation will work out slowly. But it will work out
nikonphoto80:
Man I'm so sorry, I wish I could help you out some how, I know you will make it, its just going to take some getting use to. they better let you have your food stamps, you need them even more now, what are they going to do let your kids starve to death.
so, long story short....woke up feeling really depressed...called every babysitter i know, no luck...drove the kids to town...went to alisha's & hung out for an hour...took the kids to the park & let katana play while i swung kagome...dropped kids off at WM with my rents...went to tattoo shop to set up appt. for tuesday & found out a friend of mine is the new...
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nikonphoto80:
That is great news, just one step closer to your dream.
wasting life
goddamnit. i am so fucking frustrated. all i want in life is to be a body piercer & live on the fucking beach. is that so much to ask? i know i'm only 23, but i'm thinking...i've got 2 kids now & single again...and i don't know how i'm ever going to do it. i mean achieve something. not just something. my goals....
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goddamnit. i am so fucking frustrated. all i want in life is to be a body piercer & live on the fucking beach. is that so much to ask? i know i'm only 23, but i'm thinking...i've got 2 kids now & single again...and i don't know how i'm ever going to do it. i mean achieve something. not just something. my goals....
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turbulence:
You *will* achieve that and more! And if you would fuck up on the way, I'd carry you the rest.
I would not want you without your babies. Not a second.
Relax - things will work out.
I wasted more life than you did
*hugs* & :kisses:
PS: It's ok that you think that thoughts - it just shows it was the right step, cause who was holding you back for the last 2 years?
I would not want you without your babies. Not a second.
Relax - things will work out.
I wasted more life than you did
*hugs* & :kisses:
PS: It's ok that you think that thoughts - it just shows it was the right step, cause who was holding you back for the last 2 years?
today is a new day. i feel okay. me & the kids slept late. it was nice. i didn't wake up to a messy house like i have been. i did tons of dishes last night. but anyway, i got the kids dressed & fed & dropped them off at mom's. then i hauled ass to the health dept. to pick up the WIC vouchers...
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nikonphoto80:
It sounds like a great day. I'm glad things went good today, that was nice of your mom, I'm glad she did that for you.
turbulence:
I sat 2 mins in front of the picture and smiled 
where to begin? it's hard to know. gabriel moved out tonight. it was a somewhat mutual decision. it was weird helping him pack his things. we even argued over a pair of pants that we both wanted. isn't that stupid? at his request, i gave him part of our tax refund money. i wonder what he'll spend it on. i'm thinking pot & guitar stuff...
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nikonphoto80:
Oh my god I'm so sorry, I thought things were going so good, what happened? I wish I could do something for you.
I guess we are both sad tonight.
I hope it doesn't cost to much to get your car fixed.
I hope you mom is going to be ok, I will be thinking of her. How are you going to work with out anyone to watch the kids?
Can't Gabriel watch the kids at his parents house?
Can Alisha come over to see you?
I feel so bad for you.
I guess we are both sad tonight.
I hope it doesn't cost to much to get your car fixed.
I hope you mom is going to be ok, I will be thinking of her. How are you going to work with out anyone to watch the kids?
Can't Gabriel watch the kids at his parents house?
Can Alisha come over to see you?
I feel so bad for you.
turbulence:
Just get a big *hug* now and we talk about things later.
I guess UA in fall and babysitting once a week can be worked out somehow. For sure. It's a long time until then...
You'll see about the beach trips
I guess UA in fall and babysitting once a week can be worked out somehow. For sure. It's a long time until then...
You'll see about the beach trips
yesterday took a turn for the better. i dropped kagome off at mom's & took katana for a playdate with my friend alisha's son, reily. she had a ton of fun & so did i. alisha & her fiance, david, + me & a new friend named colter played spades. it was girls versus guys & girls won overall! lots of fun. i had to...
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turbulence:
Well you got Kagome
She's so loveable
She's so loveable
today has been interesting. i woke up around 9am when my food stamp case worker called. she said that i'll be receiving my appointment in the mail soon. i hope it goes through fast!
i went back to sleep for a couple hours, but by 11am kagome was kicking me & trying to pull my lips off (her little way of saying wake up). so...
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i went back to sleep for a couple hours, but by 11am kagome was kicking me & trying to pull my lips off (her little way of saying wake up). so...
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turbulence:
Cute baby pics now!
You know me
You know me
nikonphoto80:
i hope it goes through fast also.
I'm getting ready to clean my whole place right now.
Well I hope he keeps trying, you are a great person and deserve a great man.
How did he get the job offer? I hope he likes it a lot.
You could try to sale the stuff on ebay.
I wish I could get a big check in the mail.
I'm getting ready to clean my whole place right now.
Well I hope he keeps trying, you are a great person and deserve a great man.
How did he get the job offer? I hope he likes it a lot.
You could try to sale the stuff on ebay.
I wish I could get a big check in the mail.
let's see. let's see. what is on my mind today? possible need for dr's appointment to discuss blogging addiction, particularly when blogging random thoughts about what to blog in the first place...
in other news, i can feel kagome's 2 front teeth as they are starting to break the surface of her gums. it's interesting to me, but to you, well, who the hell knows....
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in other news, i can feel kagome's 2 front teeth as they are starting to break the surface of her gums. it's interesting to me, but to you, well, who the hell knows....
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nikonphoto80:
You are writing a lot of long journals lately, I think they may have a pill for that hahahahahahaha.
Well I hope she doesn't cry to much as they are coming in.
Well if you do stay at home I hope you do not regret it later on in life.
What the fuck, it sounds like all of the departments in your area needs a good kick in the ass, how can you help some one if you fuck them over.
I really hope your boy gets off his ass and does something with his life and I hope you get the change you are wanting.
That is a really cool photo.
Well I hope she doesn't cry to much as they are coming in.
Well if you do stay at home I hope you do not regret it later on in life.
What the fuck, it sounds like all of the departments in your area needs a good kick in the ass, how can you help some one if you fuck them over.
I really hope your boy gets off his ass and does something with his life and I hope you get the change you are wanting.
That is a really cool photo.
turbulence:
lol - blogging is a harmless - non health bothering - addiction and stress relieve, don't worry about it at all.
cool that Kagome finally gets teeth, although she will be fussy I guess. it would be time to slowly get her away from breastfeeding, or biting will occur
try to find out about getting child support resolved ... you can't spare that money
*hug*
cool that Kagome finally gets teeth, although she will be fussy I guess. it would be time to slowly get her away from breastfeeding, or biting will occur
try to find out about getting child support resolved ... you can't spare that money
*hug*
for fuck's sake...today has sucked donkey balls.
*my food stamps have been revoked (not really my fault, but the review was sent in a few days too late) i feel i must mention that i sent in the form, but is was too early, so they sent it back to me & when i sent it back again, it was too late...wtf. now we have...
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*my food stamps have been revoked (not really my fault, but the review was sent in a few days too late) i feel i must mention that i sent in the form, but is was too early, so they sent it back to me & when i sent it back again, it was too late...wtf. now we have...
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nikonphoto80:
What the fuck, that is so dumb, they should have taken it the first time.
I feel you on the bills, and I have to pay some of that same stuff, and rent and 400 on my credit card.
He got shoot at? When did that happen? Where did he work?
But the good thing about moving is that the places you want to go to are pretty big and I'm sure you would be abele to find a lot better jobs.
I'm sorry, I hope you can quit smoking.
I wish I had the money to give you.
I feel you on the bills, and I have to pay some of that same stuff, and rent and 400 on my credit card.
He got shoot at? When did that happen? Where did he work?
But the good thing about moving is that the places you want to go to are pretty big and I'm sure you would be abele to find a lot better jobs.
I'm sorry, I hope you can quit smoking.
I wish I had the money to give you.
turbulence:
Will work out
This pic is beautiful - I like the roses and the moon...
This pic is beautiful - I like the roses and the moon...
today was a lazy-feeling day. i slept late, did a few chores (dishes/clothes), played a little silent hill 3 (even though i've already beaten it), had a short visit w/ my bro & his wife, & other than that, i just sat around watching tv or doing crosswords while smoking clove cigarettes. i even checked my computer for new messages on myspace, but i didn't...
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turbulence:
Beautiful picture - that's where I wanna go
beautiful_lie:
it seems like it was much more busy than you thought!
sometimes i just want to rant
but i feel something holding me back and i cant
is it the fear
of just being here
letting people hear
about things that i endear
no it cant be that way
i have things to say
i might not get paid
but i'll show you the way
learn from mistakes i've made
avoid an early grave
these prison...
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but i feel something holding me back and i cant
is it the fear
of just being here
letting people hear
about things that i endear
no it cant be that way
i have things to say
i might not get paid
but i'll show you the way
learn from mistakes i've made
avoid an early grave
these prison...
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turbulence:
You know, that you still surprise me every day
Well every 2nd to be honest
Very nice!
Well every 2nd to be honest
Very nice!
nikonphoto80:
That poem was amazing. you can vent to me any day of the week.
Virtually cuddling her away
I need to clean to, but to day is my only day off all week and last night I got super drunk.
I hope his visit goes well.