Don't really know how many of you read this often, but i made a decison today... i can't do it anymore. I wanted to be strong, to wait for her, and change, work on my shortcomings and become the man she wanted me to be... but this is the most intense pain i have ever felt, and i can't do it any longer. I have to let her go, and i think it will kill me, emotionally speaking... tomfornelli told me that i should, and well, i can't seem to think of any reason any longer to pursue someone who is constanly crushing me. 6 months, i guess most people would have given up already, and i know that i can say i tried, maybe i could of tried harder, but you shouldnt have to try at love, it either is there or not, and i guess i just haven't wanted to see that it wasn't. Thanks for the support from those of you who have been there, and for those of you who will be... i will surely need it. I don't know how soon i will be able to get a divorce, mostly a money issue right now, but man, i am so bummed, what a kick in the balls... i can't beleave it is over you know... feel so fucking empty inside! Don't really know how many of you read this often, but i made a decison today... i can't do it anymore. I wanted to be strong, to wait for her, and change, work on my shortcomings and become the man she wanted me to be... but this is the most intense pain i have ever felt, and i can't do it any longer. I have to let her go, and i think it will kill me, emotionally speaking... tomfornelli told me that i should, and well, i can't seem to think of any reason any longer to pursue someone who is constanly crushing me. 6 months, i guess most people would have given up already, and i know that i can say i tried, maybe i could of tried harder, but you shouldnt have to try at love, it either is there or not, and i guess i just haven't wanted to see that it wasn't. Thanks for the support from those of you who have been there, and for those of you who will be... i will surely need it. I don't know how soon i will be able to get a divorce, mostly a money issue right now, but man, i am so bummed, what a kick in the balls... i can't beleave it is over you know... feel so fucking empty inside!
Learning experience, man. It's what builds character and makes us better people. Plus, women can be confusing and frustrating as hell. Trust me, I know.
Just keep your head high, so you can look @all the cute girls and their boobies on this site, then before long, you'll find the right one that'll make you happy for a long time.
WTF I sound like a fucking ABC Afterschool Special. *shudders* Lest I start talking to you about the dangers of anorexia or underage drinking... *slaps the beer out of your hand, then realizes you're 21, and gets you a fresh one* ...I'll just say hang in there, man.
-TM