gotham2

it's raining. hard. it hasn't stopped in a while. it's sad and grey and i'm just staring at it, waiting for it to break. but i don't think it will, and it doesn't bother me a whole lot, except when i think about flooding. i'm afraid of floods. i can swim, but i'm afraid. everything ruined, i just can't imagine.

i'm afraid of drowning too. sort of. i hate that feeling when you dive deep into the water, and it's too far, and as you swim toward the surface you realize that you need to take another breath, so you swim harder, reaching and struggling for that feeling of air in your lungs, the panic is the worst. i hate that feeling.