so many changes...
i fear my number may be up soon...but don't worry, i'll be back around again.
the world is faster than me. it often feels like drowning when i'm just trying to keep my head above water.
the sky is too large to consume us all. pain is like candy. i'm in love with the world and it's people and i'm finding that...
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i fear my number may be up soon...but don't worry, i'll be back around again.
the world is faster than me. it often feels like drowning when i'm just trying to keep my head above water.
the sky is too large to consume us all. pain is like candy. i'm in love with the world and it's people and i'm finding that...
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another day passes. days on end.
the moments fly past me on the backs of the bats that comfort me in the night.
i'm tired when i close my eyes.
my next home will be quiet and i'll buy a kitten and i'll steal daisies from the neighbors garden to put in the windowsill.
the children upstairs were noisy making french toast today. beautiful children...
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the moments fly past me on the backs of the bats that comfort me in the night.
i'm tired when i close my eyes.
my next home will be quiet and i'll buy a kitten and i'll steal daisies from the neighbors garden to put in the windowsill.
the children upstairs were noisy making french toast today. beautiful children...
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big_baby_satan:
I'm giving you lots of notice for this one
Saturday Nov 29th
good nite irene
with The Whether
@ Steamers Pub Victoria BC
good nite irene's first show back with the original line-up Live footage from the show will be used in the video for "on the brink"
Hopefully you can come
Saturday Nov 29th
good nite irene
with The Whether
@ Steamers Pub Victoria BC
good nite irene's first show back with the original line-up Live footage from the show will be used in the video for "on the brink"
Hopefully you can come
aanya:
I hear that you are supposed to come to our Christmas party on Dec 13th in Vancouver! You should!
i miss being around here. i just can't keep up.
i've moved out of the hotel and i'm living in a basement just out of downtown. it's unfinished and has grey concrete floors, but i have a wood stove to roast marshmallows on at night.
i'm struggling, trying to support the two of us on my minimum paying job. it's frustrating to work and work...
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i've moved out of the hotel and i'm living in a basement just out of downtown. it's unfinished and has grey concrete floors, but i have a wood stove to roast marshmallows on at night.
i'm struggling, trying to support the two of us on my minimum paying job. it's frustrating to work and work...
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iload2:
Experience Pays
Kicking stones and Cans
Kicking stones and Cans
olsen:
I used to have a better hold....
well, how do you like it? you up and disappear for a week or so and they change the whole damn place around! it looks wicked, but my tired little head is having difficulty adjusting right now.
how is everybody out there? this damn rain wont give up, so i've decided to spend the remainder of the day looking at bats and dying my hair....
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how is everybody out there? this damn rain wont give up, so i've decided to spend the remainder of the day looking at bats and dying my hair....
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paleenchantress:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY !!
ophelia:
happy birthday 
the city is wonderful but my room has swallowed me whole for the past few days. being too poor to buy decent food kind of sucks, but i'm getting the hang of it. i wish i could talk and listen and comment more these days, but i'm limited in time and money. i miss everybody in my real life and also everybody around this place....
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holymackerel:
you have a certain look about you.
kind of reminds me of a gothy carrol burnette *l*
but you're real cute
kind of reminds me of a gothy carrol burnette *l*
but you're real cute
leavemehere:
wow 
i got two seperate kisses
your lovely
i got two seperate kisses
your lovely
well i'm settled and staying at a wonderful little hotel in downtown victoria for the next month. i'm feeling wonderful and the weather is absolutely gorgeous.
moving day was probably the most emotionally charged day i've had recently. but i'll tell that story when i have more time. as well as catching up to all the warm-wishes and little comments.
i hope everybody is well....
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moving day was probably the most emotionally charged day i've had recently. but i'll tell that story when i have more time. as well as catching up to all the warm-wishes and little comments.
i hope everybody is well....
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naja_haje:
I'm so jealous!
That sounds incredibly romantic.
That sounds incredibly romantic.
purephase:
Fun fun.
i'm leaving this place. this physical space that some would urge me to call a home. it hasn't really even sunk in that i'm leaving tomorrow. yesterday was my last day at the work i've known for the past year. the day went quickly and felt like most other days except for the heartfelt hugs at the end, and the most genuine well-wishes and honest...
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purephase:
Oh so pretty words for what sounds like new, maybe/maybe not rough times.
Hold my hand darlin', not for help, but because I know you'll be fine, and everything will work out alright. I just want to be there when it happens.
We all know you have a beautiful smile.
Hold my hand darlin', not for help, but because I know you'll be fine, and everything will work out alright. I just want to be there when it happens.
We all know you have a beautiful smile.
samskara:
hey: good luck.
i'm feeling more and more like my old self again...
but that old self used to get me into a whole lotta trouble.
i'm packing...sort of. trying to decide which of my things i want and which i need. i've been selling my possessions and have discovered that they do not, in fact, possess me.
i haven't cried in months. but i think with all...
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but that old self used to get me into a whole lotta trouble.
i'm packing...sort of. trying to decide which of my things i want and which i need. i've been selling my possessions and have discovered that they do not, in fact, possess me.
i haven't cried in months. but i think with all...
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26oo:
Stand back...give them room...and take em outta their misery quick and easy. Then you can use the duster for other things
samskara:
sounds good. i havent been out west since i was a kid. i want to move myself, but i havent the money. hopefully by next september i'll have enough plus funding to move into the city.
gimme danger little stranger...
i slept alone last night for the first time in a long time.
my bed felt too large for my small frame.
my sleep was heavy, uninterupted at four-thirty am to share a cigarette in silence.
uninterupted every few hours by a body moving closer, carefully replacing an arm around my waist, squeezing hard, oh yeah, there you are.
uninterupted by...
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i slept alone last night for the first time in a long time.
my bed felt too large for my small frame.
my sleep was heavy, uninterupted at four-thirty am to share a cigarette in silence.
uninterupted every few hours by a body moving closer, carefully replacing an arm around my waist, squeezing hard, oh yeah, there you are.
uninterupted by...
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paleenchantress:
i defintly dont like to sleep alone..wanna cuddle ?? 
topbanana66:
Hey G - Feel free to leave a comment in the B.C. group! xoxox
my mother just realized that she hates me.
i feel sad for my mother because she'll never get over it. she says that people always ask about me...what i'm doing...where i'm headed...she thinks-nowhere, but answers accordingly.
she doesn't believe that art puts food on the table.
she wont even look at my art.
my mother calls me dark and contrary. demonic. pornographic.
my mother has...
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i feel sad for my mother because she'll never get over it. she says that people always ask about me...what i'm doing...where i'm headed...she thinks-nowhere, but answers accordingly.
she doesn't believe that art puts food on the table.
she wont even look at my art.
my mother calls me dark and contrary. demonic. pornographic.
my mother has...
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hellkitten:
beware, this might turn out to be a long one....
i completely hear you with what you've posted. i have the same problem. my dad's a dreamer and has never made money for the family (although, he's tried harder than anyone i've ever known) and my mom thinks that's how i'll end up, too. she doesn't talk about it, but i know that's how she feels. i know she feels that my going to uni is a waste of her money. i don't care anymore. i can't care anymore. i take what's offered and if i'm called a 'manipulator' or a 'user' that's fine by me. i'll live here for free, eat for free, go to school for free just because i have high debt that i want to get rid of and if i had to pay for all those other things i'd be screwed. it gets on my nerves, though. not being able to move out. get out. wash off all the uselessness i feel in this house. they went away for 3 weeks this time last year. i'd never felt more right, more happy, more confident in myself. all they talk about is finding me a rich man to marry. i'm an aquarius for God's sake! i'd never settle for that. dad complains that i'm taking too high a dose of my antidepressants, then when i get sad it's not enough. he thinks i have multiple personalities. i had to secretly get a new domain and a public email address so he wouldn't over-react to what i'm saying in my journal. that situation was fucked up. i'll give you a laugh and tell you the whole story one day. one day we'll both be free of these chains. i just wish i had a license to be able to wisk us both off for some fun, take our minds off the crap we have to put up with.
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i completely hear you with what you've posted. i have the same problem. my dad's a dreamer and has never made money for the family (although, he's tried harder than anyone i've ever known) and my mom thinks that's how i'll end up, too. she doesn't talk about it, but i know that's how she feels. i know she feels that my going to uni is a waste of her money. i don't care anymore. i can't care anymore. i take what's offered and if i'm called a 'manipulator' or a 'user' that's fine by me. i'll live here for free, eat for free, go to school for free just because i have high debt that i want to get rid of and if i had to pay for all those other things i'd be screwed. it gets on my nerves, though. not being able to move out. get out. wash off all the uselessness i feel in this house. they went away for 3 weeks this time last year. i'd never felt more right, more happy, more confident in myself. all they talk about is finding me a rich man to marry. i'm an aquarius for God's sake! i'd never settle for that. dad complains that i'm taking too high a dose of my antidepressants, then when i get sad it's not enough. he thinks i have multiple personalities. i had to secretly get a new domain and a public email address so he wouldn't over-react to what i'm saying in my journal. that situation was fucked up. i'll give you a laugh and tell you the whole story one day. one day we'll both be free of these chains. i just wish i had a license to be able to wisk us both off for some fun, take our minds off the crap we have to put up with.
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samskara:
where can i see some of your artwork?
there is no longer any distinction between day and night for me.
i have been watching the sun rise and set for the past four days.
dawn and dusk are just here to remind me that time has been passing.
another twilight.
even more time has passed by now.
i will never catch up.
sleep came on weary eyes...
but once again i found myself...
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i have been watching the sun rise and set for the past four days.
dawn and dusk are just here to remind me that time has been passing.
another twilight.
even more time has passed by now.
i will never catch up.
sleep came on weary eyes...
but once again i found myself...
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tygertyger:
I will definitely be keeping in touch with you. A visit would be excellent - I really regretted not being able to meet up with you when I was out your way. Keep me posted.
26oo:
talk talk talk
woke up this morning to another's beautiful face and soft dark hair. i opened the curtains up wide and let the air come in to help the room breathe before crawling back under the covers and taking a morning nap.
the afternoon thus far has been spent drinking cold duff, smoking cigarettes and playing round after round of nine ball. i'm getting much better even...
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the afternoon thus far has been spent drinking cold duff, smoking cigarettes and playing round after round of nine ball. i'm getting much better even...
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bluefreak:
hey im not lost i just dont have a computer anymore it sucks ass. but you can still come and find me and take me away to some far off place...canada sounds good to me right now beleive me it does. i shall try to return again as soon as i can but i always check my email so if you feel the need to talk to me contact me through email cuz its kinda hard to take all the security setings of the comps here just so i can go on SG *L*. take care *rubber chicken of DOOM*
topbanana66:
Hope you are well sweeetie! xxxxx000000xxxxxxx0000000xxxxx00000
and say hi to me I'm really friendly honest
shaved head, tattoo on neck, singer in GNI you can't miss me
I really, you know, don't want to.
Take care, darlin'. See you in Reno.