gosharkz

Disclaimer: I wrote this and posted it. Did not edit, probably repeated, fucked up on grammar, etc.

Sorry yall. I am really bad about keeping in touch. Fact is I may just let SG go once my subscription expires. 5 years is a long time for anything for me these days. I dont have any problems with the site, where its gone, where its going. The price of a 1 year membership is cheap. The news stuff is good and funny except for the FeartheReaper moron but I dont let him bother me. The girls are still attractive, smart, witty, etc. Il probably go to another live show when they roll though. Anybody who actually reads my journal can im me at gosharkz on aim to keep in touch. I used to be a really shy mofo and had to meet all my friends online. Met most of my girlfriends/friends with benifits, etc. online as well. From being a 16 year old on AOL teenchats (16/m/ca im me to chat) to OK Cupid (never worked) to Suicide Girls- never met anybody from here but have some cool online buddies, my social life always revolved around online. When I would be home alone on a friday night drinking by myself, there was always another "sucka" like me online. Many of my online friends have come and gone but I still have a list of old timers I keep in touch with. Long gone is the horny teenager/ drunk early twenties getting laid, talkin dirty boy. Now I actually have intelectual and interesting type converstaions and shit. For the past year and half I zotted out everyone on my buddy list that I dont talk to about normal day to day things. My recent friends that I have made from SuicideGirls are great- il keep ya'all on my buddy list. Some of you have your naked boobies on your pages and stuff but I wont miss those- I would miss the correspondance and chatting though so that shal stay.

Maybe it is Wikipedias fault that I dont need SG anymore. Fuck I love Wikipedia.

More than likely, it comes down to the fact that i am growing up and starting to mature past being a shy guy. Im getting married soon (my girl is fine with SG- shes a member and all so im not being pussy whooped into oblivion), I have a dog that gets me out on a walk every evening, I am expanding my networking with peers in my formal carreer and hopefully new one.

I am a news junkie. Suicide Girls news has a problem. Sorry to say this. Too many people do not understand the different between news and commentary. Too many of the EDITORS who should know the difference do not know. I dont mind reading comments from people, but I do hate "news" stories that are really commentary. Some of these supposed editors need to learn that the News/Commentary/Rumor/Feature is there for a reason. FearTheReaper is a fucking sarcastic moron. Il leave it at that. What I dont like most about news on here is that there is not enough decent discussion about things from different points of views. Instead of saying " I disagree with this because" you see " WTF, Get a life, whatever".

I dont have a myspace page but maybe I will get one. There has to be somthing out there for me. I just dont know if Suicide Girls is for me. I feel like I am growing up too much. Now, the teen and early twenty SG members tend to be more mature, grown up, etc. than the general population but I now feel like im 30 in many ways. I had to grow up over the past year to stop being a drunk/alcoholic (I drink less than a quarter of what I used to, maybe 15-20 percent). I see a shrink every week that is helping me get over problems I had as a teen. I grew up too fast, languished and now made another jump. I now have a wife and kids (dog and cats) and the net is no longer provides me the socializing that I need. I now get it in person. I AM NOT BASHING THE NET, SG, INSTANT MESSEGING! Everyone uses the net the ammount that they do for different reasons. Mine just am. I never spoke to a girl online just to get laid. In the end it ended up happening a lot and in 95% of the situations things worked out mutually well and no hard feelings.

I met my fiance back in high school. Didnt realize we liked each other until she became a roomate several years later. Now im in love, getting married, have a dog/cat family and keep rather busy. We used to (somtimes still do) just lay around the house on our laptops and watch tv. I needed SG to keep me occupied for a part of the evenings. Now, I dont. There is nothing wrong with Suicide Girls, I just am ready to move on with my life and in a sense, SG was there for me in a past life and part of moving on is well...moving on. Now we are finding that getting out isnt all that bad and we actually are. Personally, I chat less online, look at about 10% of the porn I used to and related activities. I go on SG less. Chatting, porn and SG's are only related in my world because I do it when I am bored. Note to friends online: By chatting I mean trying to jockey multiple converstaions, iming every friend right when they sign on, etc. I enjoy converstaions as they come up, iming friends, etc. I just dont rely on chatting for more than it is which is keepin in touch with folks.

The Suicide Girls, as well as PSW women, etc, are still very lovely and if you click on the profiles they are still very much intellegent and cool. The groups are still very intersting and fun- theres just a lot more of them. There are still annoying newbies and every time a bell rings a guy asks a question about his penis. Thats just life. To those who say SG has grown up and lost its luster, purpose, etc. I ask them perhaps if they as individuals have just grown up, moved on, etc. Maybe they just need an excuse to leave the site. Nothing wrong with needing a little push but dont blame others. Life evolves. Websites evolve. I have evolved and am moving on with my life.

Part of me moving on is not spending so much fucking time in front of the computer. Somethings gotta go and I decided that this will. I am building a life with Kim and this SG thing is a remnant of my old life. The reasons I joined were many, the reasons I stayed were many, the reasons I am going is just that there are less reasons to stay and more to go. Simple.

Leaving the site is no harm no foul to those I met and those I have not. If I know you, chances are we have chatted on AIM. We can still do that. I am going to cut down on my friends on there, but only as I lose touch or just lose interest. Regardless how we became "buddies", the people that are still on my buddy list are those that I have decent, meaningful and just plain normal converstaions with. To those who I didnt meet, oh well. They will never know that they missed out on meeting the greatness that is I. (or somthing like that).