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This Entry Is Just A L'il Reflection on A Subject that I know I think about Every Time I come Into My MadPad Here...Oh Yeah...I am Talkin These "Friend" Lists...

Now, I May Sound Naive here, As I am One who Never Proclaims to Knowing Everything...Not even An Iota of Anything...But There is Something I Admit to at least having an Interest in...And That is People...I May Hate Most of 'em...But NOT knowing exactly which is which, as opposed to Fodder? or Friends..?

Yeah...There Lies The Rub...

I'll Admit to Not Knowing much about These friend-collecting Sites...I have Had A Myriad of them recently introduced to me, i.e. My Space, and I Have To Admit...I am Pretty Fuckin' Confused...Have Been since I got here, I Don't Know about Any of You Guys...But It Was A New Experience for Me, when I Got In here...All I Knew Was I had An Empty Friends Space...And The First People I met, Mainly Deceptiview And porecelainheart, Were Probably The Very First To Gimme A Shove in The Right Direction, and I am Glad To Say That I STILL talk and Brand These Guys as True Blues...But What Of ALL The Folks Who For Some Strange Friggin' Reason, All of A Sudden Theres People who just 'appear' to Have An Interest In You...

Now, I will Admit, Of Course I Came Here, Reccomended By Other SG Members, or Ex-Members...Telling Me of The Wonderful Way in Which This site Promotes Punk Rock and Gothic Looks, through The whole SG Draw...So I Fell For it...Hook Line and Sinker...(Even Have The Hook in The Corner of My Mouth as A Reminder...Just Like A Fish That Fought TOO Hard, and Was Finally Released Back into Freedom with A Hook to Remind Me...NOT to go for Such Tasty Looking Bait...It Just May Be A Trap...) I Did My Best...Gave it One Shot..Gave Up and Decided That I Honestly Liked What This Place Had To Offer...Yet I Needed to Do SOMETHING...So I Did.

The Abominable Apothecary...Ahhhhhh, My Pride and Joy...Created For Many Reasons, But being used to Illustrate An Example. I did It So I could Find That Small Rebellious Group That are always around, You just Gotta Find em...I Have Relied On That Reality for basically Everything I Have Had To in Order to Never Be A Cow...As In, A Group...A LARGE, POPULAR Group...EEEYUCK! I took My Lickings For Never being what I was told was much better than hangin out with "The Bad Crowd", The troublemakers, The Subversive-Badass, Smokin, Swearin, Drinkin', Druggin'...You Name it...I was There.
Now This All Works Fine and Swell For REALITY, As In...REAL Life...Outside This Box...But Enter into This Cube made of Plastic chips and Glass? And Getting to Know Someone is A WHOLE other Motis Operandi...Because There is No Palm to Shake, and Feel The Pulse and Grip of Someone who who you can immediately feel and look into their eyes and whilst Pressing Flesh, Read Them Like A Book.
However, In Here?? Well...I must Admit, I give EVERYONE The Benefit of The Doubt...As You Get Used To How Things work...You Learn That Requesting/Accepting A Friendship To/From Someone That You Think Could Be Interesting.

Right...?

....Um...Yeee-ah, SURE...Whatever.

I Know I Have Met Some INCREDIBLE Individuals That I Know I am Going To enjoy Knowing...It's A Very Good Thing when You Put Out A Signal...and Others, upon hearing it, Immediately Migrate in The General Direction, anticipating The Same Thing...Humans That You Can Expell Energy Into, and Get Nothing But The Same Back, Each Time Getting A Bit More Into The Groove of What They Are About, and Vice Versa...GREAT!!! What A Clever way To Be Able To Hook Up...ESPECIALLY Whe The Motivation Starts EXACTLY at The Very Heart of What Your life Entails, That They Also See In Themselves...And THAT is How The Apothecary Has Become What it Has...A Group Of Hardcore Horror Addicts who Have Somewhat of A Similar Agenda...It's Not exactly 'chemistry' as much as it Simply Cuttin' The Small Talk, and Goin Straight For The Fuckin Heart of The Matter. At Least From THAT Point...I Know exactly Where to Begin with people...and then it just goes...But What Of The Ones That Came Into Your Cyber-World, and You Never hear A Thing From again??

THAT, Is What I am Talkin' Bout People...I can Look At My 'Friends' Page...and To Be quite Honest, I would and have made attempts to get to know some of The Folks whom I Have Welcomed Into The Apothecary...However, I Have Also seen Names I Have NEVER heard A Single Word From.

Did Something Happen Between Requesting My Fiendship and Now???Do I Offend? Or Is It I am Just Not As Interesting as I Looked to be???

Kind of Makes me wonder.
Makes Me Wonder enough That I cannot Believe I am going to expell The Energy on This By Visiting Some of These so-called "Fiends" on my list...Just Droppin By...Ya Know??

Of Course, I counter-balance this with KNOWING that The Folks who haven't A Godamned Thing to worry about...YOU Know Who You Are...And If You Know Me...Then This has just been A HUGE waste of Your Time...and Please Do NOT Throw Rotten Tomatoes at me...
Remember...?
Your My Fiend....

OOogaBOOoga ,SS



BTW...I Just Now Discovered That People Really Do 'DO' The Testemonials Thing...As I was asked to administer One...On Curiousity, I checked Mine for Any...and I am Proud To Say I Have One Fine Testimonial From One of My Favorite Boys In Scotland...pAuly...and I couldn't feel Prouder...I decided that I am going to Start Writing Testemonials In The Form Of Eulogies...HaHa...So Keep Checkin your 'Testemonials' You Know I REALLY Loathe you, and Your A Fiend, If You Find A Very Morose, yet Clever Obituary In Your Testimonials...