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sorry about that

really it was a great party, i think i did a pretty good job of not being a downer, right?

for those who sucked up my bean dip and want more:

oven-safe pyrex dish
cover bottom of dish with cream cheese (about half the package)
pour some salsa on it
spread a half a can of beans (kidney or black beans or...
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ampersandwich:
i want to rub your bean dip all over my fucking body!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

harumph!
ampersandwich:
ps - nice new photo - any sign of bare shoulders really makes the fan club cheer

oh, and pss - i just cut off 11 inches of hair today, tho no photos yet exist wink
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Bad idea: going to a party and pretending to have fun.

Bad idea: getting a cat thinking it will make me better. it won't.

Bad idea: staying up late commenting on SG when my life is a fucked up mess.


goodnight


ps

don't argue
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dominanefret:
raises hand!
arguing!

I think that you had a LOT of fun making out with me.

The end.
dominanefret:
raises hand!
arguing!

I think that you had a LOT of fun making out with me.

The end.
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Reading up on cat care, and I'm scared. frown There's just so much to think about, and so much I have to know. Things like nail trimming and proper food and how do I keep kitty a good kitty? Ray's cat used to scratch up everything in the house. I don't want that. And I don't want kitty to be outside. Some people's kitties are scared...
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nyssa:
Oh, and defintely plan on getting him/her fixed. Really really.
zolta:
Cats!
everyone has an opinion, this site should have an aka like suicide people with cats or something.

here's my 2 cents (I have had cats for over 20 years) first dont get one. You seem to travel a lot and you'll have to deal with that. Second they smell especially in a smallish apt. Third if you allergic it will make matters worse. Having said that I would suggest you do not get a kitten. Too much trouble. Get a 2 year old. Get a female one that has been fixed and preferably de-clawed. if u have a cat with claws theyll rip everything up regardless of what you do or others say. They cannot be trained like a dog and no matter how hard you try to educate them to only scratch where it is appropriate as soon as you piss the cat off (which is often) they tear something else up. This is my experience, for whats its worth.

loved the tat. either I am loosing my mind or was away but I do not recall seeing it before

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everyone must read Fierhauk's comment because he hit the nail on the head right there. besides, you've seen me naked.

then check out this video and be amazed at the fakemuscleshirt. Helene sent that out on Myspace. Helene used to babysit me when I was a small child.

I am in the middle of dying my hair. Brown! It's going back. I dyed...
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zolta:
u look good with brown hair
u look good naked
u look good
u look
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hellomrworld:
my cat has mentioned his blog on kitties group .... your name sounds familiar too we could have been friends ...
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Update: I just talked to my sister and she says, "Yeah, get a cat." eeek I think I might!

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My tattoo itches.

ick, now that I'm thinking about it, I'm itching all over. I hate that.

I had too much coffee this morning. Well... maybe it was just enough. I was up til 4am reading (only cuz I didn't start my schoolwork until after 1am)...
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southernbelle:
kiss kiss kiss
southernbelle:
Great minds think alike! wink
That recipe is super easy, and it only takes like 5 minutes to get everything ready!! I did add a little salt to mine, but I love salt! biggrin

I'm hoping to see you next month if I am able to come visit!! It's about a 99% chance I am coming though, so it looks good! biggrin
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Mike said it best:
To Rebound Guy: Yeah I'm done with you now. K bye.

I just got off the phone. He called me and we talked. I'm in a much better mood today so the conversation went well. We're not going to hang out for a little while, and whatever we had going on is over. I'm sorry it couldn't work, but I'm ok...
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aponia:
You are the sweetest woman ever...like ever...since the dawning of time. So it makes me extra sad to know your having a tough time.

Thank you for the book. I plan on making you something, but I'm completely blocked. I'm hoping some new yarn we get in will yell "goob" and will immediately spring into something lovely.

Keep your chin up sweetie. All the stupid shit never lasts forever.
radiofrank:
I'm sorry that I missed your last entry, dear. You've always been very supportive of me, and I would like to do the same for you.

It sucks to hear that things are a little tough for you right now, but I know that things will get better and that you will move forward.

kiss
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I just can't leave well enough alone. frown

I don't think this is recoverable. I think it's best if I walk away now and don't turn back because if I stick around I'm going to be hurt. Hell, I'm already hurt. Which is why I don't want to walk away. The problem is, what started all this was my fear of being walked away from, and...
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tadzi:
well, it could be worse. you could be like me and shut out any positive feeling you have.

we all have our ways of protecting ourselves and trying to be comfortable. dont beat yourself up or question it. do what feels natural.
blackcorvidae:
thanks. I think it's a cute photo too. We are kind of cute sometimes, I'd say.
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Whatever is happening to you, it seems a difficult thing. You can't always avoid difficult choices, but sometimes you might have to or you should...
my advise is slight, but feel better anyways, okay?
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The sun is up, it's a beautiful morning, and I am a silly girl.

I'm not upset anymore. I'm going to go to theb0y's party tonight and go back to the other one tomorrow. That's my solution.

In fact now I feel kinda stupid for getting upset. tongue I think I was just feeling left out.

I'm wacky. Fucking wacky!

Happy St Pat's day, everyone!...
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jakbstrd:
i've never subscribed to the belief that you need someone else to make your life complete. i mean, i agree that other people make life a lot more fun but counting on their particular existence seems rather secondary.

i gave gas to a couple one time because the station we had stopped at happened to be closed down. i wasn't in need of gas, i was just stopping because it seemed a better time than the truck stop down the road. we ended up stopping at the same truck stop and the lady tried to buy my $50 tank of gas after i had given her $4 of gas.

i told her to instead invest in the future of someone else like i had. there is no direct stipulation as to how to invest in someone's future, it just feels really nice when you do.

i'm not sure what that means for you, but i think you put yourself out there enough to relax and not have to worry so much about the return...it will come back to you. sometimes you just need the right glasses to see it.
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radiofrank:
I'd say that your pic is more bad-ass than drunken, but what do I know? biggrin
twotoner:
Please, it's Guinness...there's no alcohol to it!

ARRR!!!
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Today is my half birthday. I am 28 1/2 today.

I should bake a cake. Half a cake, of course. wink

silly dirty survey from myspace:

SPOILERS! (Click to view)
This is the DIRTY Survey.....for anyone who likes to get down & dirty...b/c who doesn't like to do that...I sure do...Read on & get nasty....life is too short to be good!

1. HAVE YOU GOTTEN LAID...
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dominanefret:
You are adorable.

We should hang out sometime.

My parents always did half birthdays for my brother and I... because when we were little we would always get jealous when the other got birthday presents, and our halfbirthdays are right at the others real birthday. Silly.
dominanefret:
1. Been laid in 2006?
*nods*

2. EVER HAD SEX IN A PUBLIC PLACE?
Nope. I'm sad.

3. EVER LAUGH DURING SEX?
Who doesn't.

4. EVER CRY DURING SEX?
Only once. It was pathetic. Having sex with an exboyfriend.

5. DO YOU LIKE TO CUDDLE AFTER SEX?
It's my favorite part.

6. EVER REGRET SEX WITH SOMEONE?
I don't like to regret things... but after the Canadian Boy broke up with me I had a slutty period.

7. EVER FAKED AN ORGASM?
Yes. Often. I am not good at orgasming and so many people don't want to stop until they make me... and it just starts hurting or getting annoying.

8. DIRTY TALK, OR SHUT THE FUCK UP?
Dirty talk.

9. HAVE YOU EVER HAD PHONE SEX?
I've also masturbated on the phone when the other person didn't know. No phone sex though.

10. EVER HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX:
Yeah.

11. EVER MASTERBATE TO YOUR FRIENDS SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
Sure.

12. EVER HAVE A ONE NIGHT STAND?
Yeah, a few. Durtin that slutty phase.

13. HOW BOUT A 3-SOME?
Quite a few.

14. EVER WATCH PORN DURING SEX?
Nope

15. EVER THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE DURING SEX?
A lot since the breakup with the Canadian Boy.

16. HAS THE CONDOM EVER BROKE?
Nope/

17. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE?
The cat lying on my partner. My room mate walking in. My mom telling my partners to make sure to use a lot of lube.

18. HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY?
19

19. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE SEX WITH RIGHT NOW?
The Canadian Boy. A certain girl that will remain nameless.

20. DO YOU THINK THAT NUMBER 19 IS POSSIBLE?
Not blody likely.

***NOTE: NUMBER 19 REFERS TO QUESTION 19, ABOVE #20!!!***

21. ARE YOU HORNY NOW?
Been feeling pretty asexual lately.