it's kinda late and i ought to go to sleep so i can get up tomorrow morning and go to work and still be alive enough to make it through the day job and the evening bartending shift as well...
but i'm in that restless mode that's my own brand of insomnia. i kind of want to grab a beer and put on a movie... Sin City is still here in its wrapper.
i think i'm still feeling like spring-break-vacation even though i've worked every day since i got home from california. so i'm still working 2 jobs, just temporarily not working 2 jobs plus full time school. so there's all this free time. i made a salad today with horseradish cheese and pepperoni. it's the first time i've taken the time to prepare myself food and enjoyed it in a while. i also did the dishes. see, when i'm too busy, the time i spend at home is spent in front of the tv or the computer, because i need serious down time. not clean-the-apartment time.
maybe this week was enough to recharge me so i can make it through the rest of the semester. i'm dragging so hard.
sleep might be best for me right now.
...instead i got in a discussion with ray on the AIM. not a good one. 
i miss him so much sometimes but it's stuff like this that reminds me why it wasn't going to work. our worlds just don't fit together and it hurts to try to force them together. still, we are the same person. 
i know him too well and that hurts, too.
found this in gelfling's journal completely randomly.
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Youll be getting a hug from me when next I see you.