gonzooliver

Thanks everyone.

It's been a rough year all around. As you guys know I'm married to the most amazing man in the world, David aka jankio. He loves me and supports me as my set is coming out. I love you
I don't know how I'm going to react to people saying what they think. I'm use to being critiqued because I draw for a living. I hear good things and bad things daily. I'm going to try and take things the best way I can but I've had body issues since I was little. I feel bad for my hubby...he has to deal with it the most because when I bring it up in front of my folks they make me feel worse. He has enough shit to deal with.
Aside from him though and a few people on here I don't have many people I hang and actually talk to. Up here a lot of the kids I went to high school with are doing illegal shit that I don't want to do, people who just use others to their own advantage, they are at college to far away or they are just assholes who don't understand that hey I'm married. So I just gave up on people up here.
Have to mention this, I'm watching Mork (cat) trying to get a piece of ham I threw at him on the couch. It fell in the couch and he's trying to 'dig' it out.
I don't know how I feel about people back in El Paso though. I feel like everything I'm dealing with up here is going to happen down there. I hate being used, so I figure that being a hermit helps. David though is a very outgoing person and he makes friends easily. I love that about him. He keeps me out of my box. I like my box but I being outside of it too.
I dont know why I'm writing this. It's easier for me to write shit that say it out loud. Dealing with the move and upcoming shit just has me nuts.
Doesn't help I found out I have an autoimmune disease. Its nothing serious thank god but I'm tired of being sick. I get really sick at least twice a month. For the most part over the last few months I've ended up in the ER two or three times and the doctors office three to six times in a month. This summer hasn't been fun. Especially with David away. What kills me is that out of all those times, I was told only once that hey you actually have something. The other time they were like there's nothing wrong your fine. If I was fine I wouldn't be in the hospital in pain, bleeding and not know why.
I just feel drained.
On happier note I'm going shopping tomorrow for David's and mine new/old apartment. We are moving back to the same apartment complex and back into the exact same townhouse Im waiting on buying a couch but am getting everything else ready but Im not buying furniture up here. The price difference is huge! My mom and I went shopping for her new furniture and saw the same couch David and I had for nearly one four hundred dollars more than our old one!
I love shopping for furniture in El Paso. They always have sales. But Kohls has nice shit and at 50% off I'm going lol. That and my sister (may she rot, aren't I nice?) wants to go clothes shopping. I'm screwed.
We had Christmas this morning David was able to listen and we opened his gifts too. I got him LFD2, COD:MW2, and a katana set. I've been playing COD. HOLY SHIT IT'S AWESOME!!!! I'm rewrapping them so we can do Christmas when he gets home. He wont tell me what he got me. How mean is that? I love you David. Chu Part of reason for re-wrapping.
Its 0301 and I need to by up at 0800 so nighty nighty, Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!