gonzillah

im sad! sad! sad!
after two weeks of happyness and love i had to leave my hometown and go back to where i actually live.
till now theres no real problem, cause i know i come back there for the next weekend
but: my roommate left, so im alone. and not that she just left home, no she left it like...HELL, i cant find a word that shows, cause UGLY is not ugly enough! believe me.
the kitchen is a real 'hells kitchen'. but even superman wouldnt go inside! damn!
and my mood is bad, BLUE! got a lot to do, but wont, cause im sad!
even that great music im listen to cant make me laugh.
so the whole day im sitting in front of my damn pc and think about with what i should start.
- have to clean the rooms...NO! but if i dont there will be no happyness the next days, cause its really ugly.
- meet people? there is nobody here i wanna see at the moment. just that silly faces i see tomorrow, so no!
- yeah! i got it! should smoke a spliff! but wait...got no weed. so...NO! FUCK.
- do some creative things....NO! not with that mood!

seems like i just wait and see what happens, but with the knowledge that nothing will happen!
im sad! sad! sad!