gogobongo

I really want to thank everybody for their kind thoughts and wishes. Losing a loved one is very hard it weighs upon me every day now. i have really changed in the past couple of weeks. I thought that when I started my new business that I had made a definite progression in my life. Now I can say for certain that this has affected me on a basic level. I don't know exactly but before this I had wanted to hold on to my childhood, my boyishness. Now, I know I can no longer afford to keep that within me. Oh not entirely, don't get me wrong, but now, I want to make him proud, I want to be everything that my potential holds. I have changed my thinking on the fundamental level. I no longer think of girlfriends as just that but rather as potential wives. It is weird. Maybe it is because my grandparents were married for 60 years but now, I want that. I want the security and the love that they had.
I am not one of those crazies that talks about getting married on the first date but if the spark isn't there by the 5th date then I won't date them for 6 or 8 months just because anymore. I am not on a holy mission to find a wife but it is no longer out of the queston. I think about all the fantastic women I have dated and how many of them, if it were not for my immaturity, I might have spent the rest of my life with.
Youth is wasted on the young, it seems. So if you ever take any of my advice it is, follow your heart.