im kinda freaked out right now. I know i prob wont be doing any sets for a while. I am considering breast reduction surgery. it has been a dream of mine since i was in grade school to get rid of the weights on my neck and back that made me so self conscious and unhappy. but im scared too, i have so many questions...
what if i dont like the way they turn out? what if something goes wrong? what if my large boobs is what defined me as a woman and its wierd with out them? then again there is an excitement, bras and clothing that fits, not having to look gravity in the face every day (at least not to that extent) the back pain going away and my posture improving (yes they are heavy so i slouch which puts me at risk for a crushed vertabre) not being so uncomfortable with exercising since i used to run and now i never run because well you know... but then there is that fact that all the surgery i have had was my teeth removed and what if it hurts really bad or i have a reaction to the anethesia? if i could make a wish and poof i had smaller boobs i would but this is surgery, i will be unconscious and cut open... which is scary very scary. Then again, in order to get surgery and be healthy i would be quitting smoking which is a great thing after the required seven weeks with out a cigarette it would be stupid of me to start up again, which is good for the health. its something i want, something i probably need, but its a big decision that i dont want to just jump into, when i went to the consultation all i had in mind was just a though in my head of a possibility... but when the insurance said they would cover it up to the next 6 months i thought o shit now this is serious. i am even seeing a mind doctor tomorrow for clarification and insight. i will be making the appointment just to keep a spot open even if i dont go through with it, december before the spring semester. which is so soon it seems. okay after my boring rant which probably should be in my diary and not up for the world to see i hope maybe you guys can help my nerves or give me nice advice because there is no such thing as bad advice considering the fact that just because it was given doesnt mean it must be taken.
much love,
Godiva
what if i dont like the way they turn out? what if something goes wrong? what if my large boobs is what defined me as a woman and its wierd with out them? then again there is an excitement, bras and clothing that fits, not having to look gravity in the face every day (at least not to that extent) the back pain going away and my posture improving (yes they are heavy so i slouch which puts me at risk for a crushed vertabre) not being so uncomfortable with exercising since i used to run and now i never run because well you know... but then there is that fact that all the surgery i have had was my teeth removed and what if it hurts really bad or i have a reaction to the anethesia? if i could make a wish and poof i had smaller boobs i would but this is surgery, i will be unconscious and cut open... which is scary very scary. Then again, in order to get surgery and be healthy i would be quitting smoking which is a great thing after the required seven weeks with out a cigarette it would be stupid of me to start up again, which is good for the health. its something i want, something i probably need, but its a big decision that i dont want to just jump into, when i went to the consultation all i had in mind was just a though in my head of a possibility... but when the insurance said they would cover it up to the next 6 months i thought o shit now this is serious. i am even seeing a mind doctor tomorrow for clarification and insight. i will be making the appointment just to keep a spot open even if i dont go through with it, december before the spring semester. which is so soon it seems. okay after my boring rant which probably should be in my diary and not up for the world to see i hope maybe you guys can help my nerves or give me nice advice because there is no such thing as bad advice considering the fact that just because it was given doesnt mean it must be taken.
much love,
Godiva
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I know a girl who had the surgery and it was the best thing she ever did. She feels great, looks great, and maybe even sexier. And I think that comes from her being more comfortable with herself. Because to be truly happy, you have to be happy with yourself.
You are a beautiful woman no matter what. Yes those breasts of yours are FANTASTIC, but they are not what makes you beautiful. It is your smile, your eyes, your personality that comes across in the pictures.
No matter what, we will all support you in whatever you choose to do.