godcldinsick

Yes I know everything isn't the greatest right now..but well yeah here's another fork in the road of life right.
Yeah ok so in case you didn't hear I think I'm really supposed to be dead right now.
I went to Olympia to see a friend on her last night..I might not get to see her again..well anyways everything was ok I was coming home..decided to take the back way home..I was driving the speed limit and hit a huge patch of black Ice at around 4:50 sunday mourning..well my car slid off the road and hit the very front of a gaurd rail at about 50 mph impaling the car. I should've been impaled along with it and instead I emerged from the vehicle completely unscratched...Now I dunno how in the world that could've happened and everyone else is telling me there is no way I should've lived through the crash..I guess there was something looking after me that night and for that I am gratefull..I don't know why I was spared I could've died and everything would have come to an end, yet here I am still standing.
Anyways so after about 3 or 4 cars passed by not stopping to ask if anyone was still alive, a young couple finaly stopped and it's funny cause they thought I was a witness and when I told them no I was the driver they seemed to be in more shock than I was. They told me it was a miricle that I was ok and then said it's cold hope someone comes soon, we gotta go were going fishing..goodbye. Yes thank you Chehalians so much you are all too kind. Can you frieking belive that..goodbye it's cold were going fishing...quick put me thru the damn gaurdrail.
So yeah when the paramedics and police finaly did show..the cop was a fucking bitch..she tried to say I was on pot..cause my eyes were a little wide and I seemed a little wired...Yeah I just went flying through 67ft of gaurd rail you fucking cop..how would you be? Well she finaly came to the conclusion that I was indeed 100% clean. I haven't touched the stuff in over 7 years..Lol then she said well the gaurdrail you took out is city property so we will be sending you a bill in the mail...O yes I'm looking foreward to it....Bitch.

So yeah I didn't get pics with the rail still through the car..but they took some and hopefully I'll get my hands on them..I kinda want to see Final Destination 2 again now...

Well all in all thank God there was nobody riding with me cause they would have all prob been killed..and well there is no way in the blackest of hells I could ever live with that.

I did take pics of the car today so you can take a look and tell me if I should be here or not. God for the part of me that is still here theres a part of me that wishes I didn't make it home that night..after all I'm still alone...nobody seems to care enough for me to feel anything..and I swear if I had a dollar for every girl that said I'm so wonderful I deserve someone so great..I'd be a billionare...Yeah I'm so great huh just not great enough to be with you right..I thought so.

But hey lets look on the bright side of things..if someone would have been with me that night I would've taken the freeway..and I would have avoided this nightmare altogether..
God somebody give me a hug or something.. I wish this was just a really bad dream.