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Willie Waldman did kick ass. Fucking hardcore. And my friend Chris' band Reclining Budda opened and they were incredible, as usual. I danced my ass off. In fact, I knocked someone drink out of their hand I was so into it. It fell and shattered on the dance floor. Talk about fucking embarassing. But now I'm paying the price--I'm sicker than ever, with no chance of stopping and resting until Wednesday. Mother fucker.

Not to be an ass, by any means, but by the abject body I was speaking in terms of abject a la Le'a Kent's article about the abject body, in which the abject body is a body that is made invisible in today's society while lingering in the corner to scare us. Take, for example, fatness. Fatness is feared in society today. There are few, if any, fat figures represented in our media--the body is rendered invisible. Yet it's constantly present in it's absence. The picture of a beautiful, thin woman accompanying a diet article is a good example of this. Though the article is about dieting, a thin woman appears because of the way we marginalize and render these bodies invisible. We don't see them because we fear them. Yet this picture and idea of fatness is lingering unseen, compelling us to diet for fear that we may end up looking like this, which society deems untouchable. So I was confused, thinking in these terms, when you spoke of capitalist abjection.

But I totally hear you about the retirement thing. I get disgusted when I see the ways worship of capitalism has become our fucking sense of nationalism...I'll be cheesy and say that we live to work instead of working to live, that we can't view and value ourselves if we're not producers, and that as soon as we stop producing we're a strain to the rest of the world that we worked so hard to build. Fuck.

So do we know each other, possibly? I used to date Chris' roommate Erik, and Erik remains one of my best friends and an incredibly important person in my life. Have I seen you around their place or at a show?

Fucking crazy. Oh, and I think my load just got lighter. I had a break through and am now zooming through a paper that, with minor adjustment, I can turn in for another class as well. Fuck yeah.