The past 24 hours has been a roller coaster time for me emotionally - concerning a very good friend. Last night she made a nearly innocuous remark regarding my perception of how I fit in or not. That one remark somehow pushed my world into total turmoil. The post mortem has taken a long time to understand how some emotions have triggered others and how they are intricately linked together - of course deep under the surface.
And I wonder why should it be my best friend - the one I'd really like not to hurt - that forever manages to push my buttons. And I wonder how fragile or not friendship is. Sometimes nearly feeling joined at the hip and at other times understanding one remark could irrepareably change what was. It is so sad to me.
