ok, so this is a cheesy annoying repost of a FB stolen 25 things list...
but i actually worked hard on this, dammit!
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you (or b/c I just like to torture you).
(To do this, go to notes under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)
1. as i start this i am not completely sure there are 25 things that are interesting about me !and! that i would like to just share out of nowhere... but i suppose i will try (and just to make it easier i will make this fake one part of it)
2. right now... i think a change would do me good.
3. i know, have felt, and love the internal power that you get when you can run for 13 miles without stopping and then still have some left to keep going if you had to.
it is a great personal power and feeling... yet it is still not enough to get me out of bed on some bad training days.
4. i really don't trust anyone on the road. other drivers make me nervous to an unusual degree. this anxiety is becoming more extreme, sadly.
5. i feel like my inspirational spark is on/has been on hiatus. my photography ideas have been way too few. even when i do have an idea it is usually not feasible or followed through on. even drawing has been left by the wayside.
i have good intentions and yet no muse has come. it saddens me. i miss urban explorations with my camera. i miss ideas and being up all night bringing them to fruition.
6. if i had the money i would be a professional student. i would rack up degrees and letters behind my name just for the fun of it. i don't care if it is culinary school, english class, renaissance art history or abnormal psych.... i want to take it and learn about it. it really doesn't matter to me if i can use the knowledge in my personal life or career. my love of academics for the pure joy of learning drives me to want it.
i'm involved, right now, in a mental debate over whether i should learn spanish or japanese first.
7. i think the mix tape/playlist is an art. i revel in making them. i make them for many occasions and activities such as running, going to sleep, derby/skating, theme parties, dinners and so on. i have a 19.6 hour (1.2G) playlist i would play when i was working at the shack.
not only do i use the lyrics and tone of the song to compose a list i also take into account the bpm. i have over 10,500 songs on one of my computers. i listen to so many different styles and genres of music my playlist are often eclectic, random and possibly confusing... but i like them.
8. i enjoy doing wildly inappropriate things.
this would include things like staging domestic squabbles in the grocery store check out line just to make uptight women feel awkward. it is even more fun when it is a lesbian power struggle fight.
9. if i am in the grocery store with someone and that person is blatantly rude or disrespectful to myself or someone else... i will shop for them. i will find the most expensive items in the store (olive oils. meats, baby formula, pills) and slip them into their cart when they are not looking. if you are very lucky i will find something embarrassing for you (tampons for a meathead, preperation h and so on).
10. some days it is acutely hard to physically get out of bed. funny thing is... i don't really know what makes me get up. people always seem to have something they rise for and yet even when my joints are in a full out rage i don't rely on a single thought to get me through it. when things do get tough some days i just try to remember there are people out there worse off than i... and it wasn't all that long ago that i couldn't really walk.
i guess other days it is the thought that if i just get through the morning duties i can get back in bed for a nap.
11. i know some of the things that are wrong with my life. i know that attachment and avoidance of change are unhealthy. i know why and i know the basic buddhist principles behind these faulty thinkings/actions.
and yet... i still have a hard time putting the right ideas/actions into practice.
12. i think i am losing my eyesight. i don't know if it is just the normal progression of my eyes as i get older or if it is disease related. i have ignored it for a while now... but it is becoming more and more obvious.
so i have started a savings account for a trip to india. i refuse to go blind/mostly blind before i get to photograph india. the land, the people, the colors- i love it. the way it looks i guess in the next two to four years i will set off on a trip. i will hike the annapurna pass. i will see tibet and will end in india. i will photograph temples and villages. i will be amazed by the food and the vibrant colors of the sarongs.
then i will be able to become blind(er) without as much apprehension.
13. once i fell off a rooftop onto a picket fence which then went into the back of my thigh.
i got up and tried to 'walk it off' because that is what an athlete would do.
about an hour and a half later i finally went and got the 27 stitches my leg needed.
14. i'm pretty much a grammar/proper english usage nazi. the misuse of your/you're - there/they're/their - a lot/alot - and others drives me insane. yet when i type i do not use capital letters or correct punctuation. i think capital letters are ugly. i use ellipses freely and where they may not be needed. i only recently started to use periods. when i hand write i never use lower case letters. everything is capital letters and predominately hard to read.
and i still cannot spell, no matter what.
15. i am not aloof, snobby, cold, disinterested, intimidating or any of the other misconceptions i have heard in the past... i am just really shy.
i will talk to you, perhaps awkwardly at first, if you come and talk to me... but i will have a hard time coming up to you and starting a conversation out of nowhere. when i get to know you it is different.
being like this makes it hard to find new friends even when i find someone interesting and really want to engage them.
16. when i cook i really have no urge to eat the meat i have made.
unless it is tuna. if i ever go back from vegetarianism (which i do not plan on doing) it will have to be for something like a nice piece of bluefin otoro. i just finished a book in which a multi-year vegetarian stopped at a gas station and caved in on a piece of slim jim. gross, just gross. it has been over 15 or so years. i have never had a thought like that about weird smoked meat. i think getting me to eat meat is a lost cause.
but i wish cheese would stop being so damn enticing.
17. it is very humbling to be told that you cannot physically do something -
but i refuse to believe it (to my own detriment sometimes) and do things such as half marathons, roller derby, power yoga and body modification anyway.
i'm pretty damn willful, competitive, and stubborn.
18. i no longer have a bunny nosed icky tequila face. and no, i do not want a lime. i will take a margarita. but without the ice. and the mix. and the salt. in fact, just put a double shot of tequila in a cold glass and i'm good.
or warm it to about 120 degrees so it grips me by the back of the brain.
too bad right now i am about 17 days into a self imposed 30 day sobriety stint.
19. i sincerely believe i have an exorbitant amount of possessions. it sometimes sickens me to think of how much i own. i regularly try to lessen my load. i am always giving things away to the needy or recycling them to people that can find a use for the item.
i believe too many people in our country are overindulgent and try to buy piece of mind/comfort/happiness/something else they may be missing with worldly possessions.
20. i want to be a doula. i have a crazy amount of natural. homeopathic, and complementary medicine knowledge when it comes to pregnancy and childbirth. i feel like i could provide a well rounded service to a expectant mother... everything from herbal/dietary heartburn relief to healthy home cooked meals to acupressure to induce labor and help her through the pain.
and no, you don't have to be a hippie or want a natural, drugless birth to have a doula. it is more about making the birth a beautiful and pleasant experience for the mother and child no matter what than having a crunchy, squatting on your own bathroom floor birth with chanting and incense in the background.
21. i believe i am not the type of person that could survive a normal 9-5, 40 hours, five days a week job.
thankfully in the art field i have options that make this alright.
if i find a job cooking i know the hours will be long, hard, and plentiful but that is just fine with me because i really love and enjoy hard work and manual labor.
22. i have a theory about why i am not wealthy/have won the lottery/am a trust fund baby. god does not trust me with money. if i had money i would spend a good deal of it (after charity and education) on silly things. for christmas everyone on my list would be graced with the fugliest holiday sweaters i could possibly find. my parent's lawn would be strewn with plastic flamingos of every color that i would have bought them to annoy the neighbors (and my mother). i would buy the most asinine things just to see the recipients smile.
23. i have crazy wanderlust and have been tied down to one place a bit too long.
i need roaming space.
24. just like lady reagan had her 'just say no' first lady mission when we were younger i think michelle obama should focus her super-powered first lady sights on working to eradicate childhood obesity.
i would love to tell her this, but for all my internet scouring i have not found a way to get my message to her.
25. my mind, when it comes to memories from my childhood, is like a sieve... only the holes are the size of quarters instead of hole punches. i really remember very little about... well... all of it. and some of the memories i do have are based mainly on photographs i have seen as an adult instead of actual events.
so, there it is. sadly, it seems most of my friends do not have the attention span to read it, though.
but i actually worked hard on this, dammit!
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you (or b/c I just like to torture you).
(To do this, go to notes under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)
1. as i start this i am not completely sure there are 25 things that are interesting about me !and! that i would like to just share out of nowhere... but i suppose i will try (and just to make it easier i will make this fake one part of it)
2. right now... i think a change would do me good.
3. i know, have felt, and love the internal power that you get when you can run for 13 miles without stopping and then still have some left to keep going if you had to.
it is a great personal power and feeling... yet it is still not enough to get me out of bed on some bad training days.
4. i really don't trust anyone on the road. other drivers make me nervous to an unusual degree. this anxiety is becoming more extreme, sadly.
5. i feel like my inspirational spark is on/has been on hiatus. my photography ideas have been way too few. even when i do have an idea it is usually not feasible or followed through on. even drawing has been left by the wayside.
i have good intentions and yet no muse has come. it saddens me. i miss urban explorations with my camera. i miss ideas and being up all night bringing them to fruition.
6. if i had the money i would be a professional student. i would rack up degrees and letters behind my name just for the fun of it. i don't care if it is culinary school, english class, renaissance art history or abnormal psych.... i want to take it and learn about it. it really doesn't matter to me if i can use the knowledge in my personal life or career. my love of academics for the pure joy of learning drives me to want it.
i'm involved, right now, in a mental debate over whether i should learn spanish or japanese first.
7. i think the mix tape/playlist is an art. i revel in making them. i make them for many occasions and activities such as running, going to sleep, derby/skating, theme parties, dinners and so on. i have a 19.6 hour (1.2G) playlist i would play when i was working at the shack.
not only do i use the lyrics and tone of the song to compose a list i also take into account the bpm. i have over 10,500 songs on one of my computers. i listen to so many different styles and genres of music my playlist are often eclectic, random and possibly confusing... but i like them.
8. i enjoy doing wildly inappropriate things.
this would include things like staging domestic squabbles in the grocery store check out line just to make uptight women feel awkward. it is even more fun when it is a lesbian power struggle fight.
9. if i am in the grocery store with someone and that person is blatantly rude or disrespectful to myself or someone else... i will shop for them. i will find the most expensive items in the store (olive oils. meats, baby formula, pills) and slip them into their cart when they are not looking. if you are very lucky i will find something embarrassing for you (tampons for a meathead, preperation h and so on).
10. some days it is acutely hard to physically get out of bed. funny thing is... i don't really know what makes me get up. people always seem to have something they rise for and yet even when my joints are in a full out rage i don't rely on a single thought to get me through it. when things do get tough some days i just try to remember there are people out there worse off than i... and it wasn't all that long ago that i couldn't really walk.
i guess other days it is the thought that if i just get through the morning duties i can get back in bed for a nap.
11. i know some of the things that are wrong with my life. i know that attachment and avoidance of change are unhealthy. i know why and i know the basic buddhist principles behind these faulty thinkings/actions.
and yet... i still have a hard time putting the right ideas/actions into practice.
12. i think i am losing my eyesight. i don't know if it is just the normal progression of my eyes as i get older or if it is disease related. i have ignored it for a while now... but it is becoming more and more obvious.
so i have started a savings account for a trip to india. i refuse to go blind/mostly blind before i get to photograph india. the land, the people, the colors- i love it. the way it looks i guess in the next two to four years i will set off on a trip. i will hike the annapurna pass. i will see tibet and will end in india. i will photograph temples and villages. i will be amazed by the food and the vibrant colors of the sarongs.
then i will be able to become blind(er) without as much apprehension.
13. once i fell off a rooftop onto a picket fence which then went into the back of my thigh.
i got up and tried to 'walk it off' because that is what an athlete would do.
about an hour and a half later i finally went and got the 27 stitches my leg needed.
14. i'm pretty much a grammar/proper english usage nazi. the misuse of your/you're - there/they're/their - a lot/alot - and others drives me insane. yet when i type i do not use capital letters or correct punctuation. i think capital letters are ugly. i use ellipses freely and where they may not be needed. i only recently started to use periods. when i hand write i never use lower case letters. everything is capital letters and predominately hard to read.
and i still cannot spell, no matter what.
15. i am not aloof, snobby, cold, disinterested, intimidating or any of the other misconceptions i have heard in the past... i am just really shy.
i will talk to you, perhaps awkwardly at first, if you come and talk to me... but i will have a hard time coming up to you and starting a conversation out of nowhere. when i get to know you it is different.
being like this makes it hard to find new friends even when i find someone interesting and really want to engage them.
16. when i cook i really have no urge to eat the meat i have made.
unless it is tuna. if i ever go back from vegetarianism (which i do not plan on doing) it will have to be for something like a nice piece of bluefin otoro. i just finished a book in which a multi-year vegetarian stopped at a gas station and caved in on a piece of slim jim. gross, just gross. it has been over 15 or so years. i have never had a thought like that about weird smoked meat. i think getting me to eat meat is a lost cause.
but i wish cheese would stop being so damn enticing.
17. it is very humbling to be told that you cannot physically do something -
but i refuse to believe it (to my own detriment sometimes) and do things such as half marathons, roller derby, power yoga and body modification anyway.
i'm pretty damn willful, competitive, and stubborn.
18. i no longer have a bunny nosed icky tequila face. and no, i do not want a lime. i will take a margarita. but without the ice. and the mix. and the salt. in fact, just put a double shot of tequila in a cold glass and i'm good.
or warm it to about 120 degrees so it grips me by the back of the brain.
too bad right now i am about 17 days into a self imposed 30 day sobriety stint.
19. i sincerely believe i have an exorbitant amount of possessions. it sometimes sickens me to think of how much i own. i regularly try to lessen my load. i am always giving things away to the needy or recycling them to people that can find a use for the item.
i believe too many people in our country are overindulgent and try to buy piece of mind/comfort/happiness/something else they may be missing with worldly possessions.
20. i want to be a doula. i have a crazy amount of natural. homeopathic, and complementary medicine knowledge when it comes to pregnancy and childbirth. i feel like i could provide a well rounded service to a expectant mother... everything from herbal/dietary heartburn relief to healthy home cooked meals to acupressure to induce labor and help her through the pain.
and no, you don't have to be a hippie or want a natural, drugless birth to have a doula. it is more about making the birth a beautiful and pleasant experience for the mother and child no matter what than having a crunchy, squatting on your own bathroom floor birth with chanting and incense in the background.
21. i believe i am not the type of person that could survive a normal 9-5, 40 hours, five days a week job.
thankfully in the art field i have options that make this alright.
if i find a job cooking i know the hours will be long, hard, and plentiful but that is just fine with me because i really love and enjoy hard work and manual labor.
22. i have a theory about why i am not wealthy/have won the lottery/am a trust fund baby. god does not trust me with money. if i had money i would spend a good deal of it (after charity and education) on silly things. for christmas everyone on my list would be graced with the fugliest holiday sweaters i could possibly find. my parent's lawn would be strewn with plastic flamingos of every color that i would have bought them to annoy the neighbors (and my mother). i would buy the most asinine things just to see the recipients smile.
23. i have crazy wanderlust and have been tied down to one place a bit too long.
i need roaming space.
24. just like lady reagan had her 'just say no' first lady mission when we were younger i think michelle obama should focus her super-powered first lady sights on working to eradicate childhood obesity.
i would love to tell her this, but for all my internet scouring i have not found a way to get my message to her.
25. my mind, when it comes to memories from my childhood, is like a sieve... only the holes are the size of quarters instead of hole punches. i really remember very little about... well... all of it. and some of the memories i do have are based mainly on photographs i have seen as an adult instead of actual events.
so, there it is. sadly, it seems most of my friends do not have the attention span to read it, though.
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padre:
To right, means someone was thinking of you if only for a minute. And shit like that goes a long way with me.
padre:
I think I'm gonna do it again this Saturday, then again next weekend. I'm like a 22 year old kid again ha ha