hives.
my entire body is covered in godless hives.
i have not been this uncomfortable in any sort of recent memory.
vile, vile hives.
allergic reaction to meds. never been through this before so i have no idea what to expect or when to look for an end.
to top it all of the blotchy red just makes me feel drop dead sexy.
havent been to the gym for days now because before the hives set in the pain and fever came. off training schedule. that upsets me. tomorrow, i hope, will be back to a bit.
this weekend i went floating for the first time.
really could have been a better experience. it was more doomed to failure from the start than not. i was already starting to feel the allergic reaction effects at that point, but didn't know it. i had a fever burning up my head, pain and restlessness. i thought i was just coming down with something. i got salt in my eye, was too cold and the running list of complaints i could draw up....
but the main reason was the refusal of my mind to quiet down. this has been a running (heh) problem for the last few months. my center has up and left me stranded somewhere out there in constant meaningless motion. this has become even more obviously with the lack of sleep in the last two nights. it has been like my mind and body have been set to run on double time, even at four in the morning. the twitching of the legs, constant rolling around and the never ending useless and meaningless loop of thoughts in and out of my reality and waking dreams at night. there has been no rest. i am doing more yoga then ever and my mind is less connected than most times.
at first i was very positive in the float and was close to achieving a nice acceptable level of semi-stillness... and then a virtual shoulder tap during my meditation as i bumped into the walls. the jolts worked me up, along with the sickness. all the mantras and positive thinking i could throw at my mind made no difference.
it was quite disappointing. i dont know if i should try again now and have the float possibly help me meditate or wait until i can calm my mind, again, efficiently and then try the float.
anyone else ever try this?
afterwards i did have a wonderful ethiopian meal that i am tempted to again tonight go out for.
my entire body is covered in godless hives.
i have not been this uncomfortable in any sort of recent memory.
vile, vile hives.
allergic reaction to meds. never been through this before so i have no idea what to expect or when to look for an end.
to top it all of the blotchy red just makes me feel drop dead sexy.
havent been to the gym for days now because before the hives set in the pain and fever came. off training schedule. that upsets me. tomorrow, i hope, will be back to a bit.
this weekend i went floating for the first time.
really could have been a better experience. it was more doomed to failure from the start than not. i was already starting to feel the allergic reaction effects at that point, but didn't know it. i had a fever burning up my head, pain and restlessness. i thought i was just coming down with something. i got salt in my eye, was too cold and the running list of complaints i could draw up....
but the main reason was the refusal of my mind to quiet down. this has been a running (heh) problem for the last few months. my center has up and left me stranded somewhere out there in constant meaningless motion. this has become even more obviously with the lack of sleep in the last two nights. it has been like my mind and body have been set to run on double time, even at four in the morning. the twitching of the legs, constant rolling around and the never ending useless and meaningless loop of thoughts in and out of my reality and waking dreams at night. there has been no rest. i am doing more yoga then ever and my mind is less connected than most times.
at first i was very positive in the float and was close to achieving a nice acceptable level of semi-stillness... and then a virtual shoulder tap during my meditation as i bumped into the walls. the jolts worked me up, along with the sickness. all the mantras and positive thinking i could throw at my mind made no difference.
it was quite disappointing. i dont know if i should try again now and have the float possibly help me meditate or wait until i can calm my mind, again, efficiently and then try the float.
anyone else ever try this?
afterwards i did have a wonderful ethiopian meal that i am tempted to again tonight go out for.
i've had periods where my mind and/or body just won't quit but it was just a phase. i'm sleeping like a baby now. (don't mean to rub it in) ;-)
hope you get better soon. i think you should try the float again once you're better.