*bursts into tears*
My parents agreed to give me 1000$ from the savings I'm supposed to get on my 21st birthday, to pay off my credit card and bills.
words cannot express the gratification, love and respect I have for my parents. They help me out so much when I REALLY need it. ever since I moved out, things with them have never been better. I have a more deep seeded understanding of why there did the things they did, and how hard it must have been for them to deal with me at times.
its funny how only time will make you realize these things. Teenagers are so ungrateful....
I truly hope to make it up to them someday. To fully repay them for all the wonderful things, and sacrifices they have made for me. To make up for all the sleepless nights I caused when i was being selfish and full of angst.
I thought my mother hated me when i was younger. but now I realize that she was only scared shitless for me, and tried to help any way she thought she could get through to me (which with my mother, is to scream sense into you).
It truly hurts me now, to think of what a fucking bitch I was, and how selfishly I acted then. They were only trying to help me............
the medication, the therapy, the constant battles of power..it was all just them grasping at a way to save their daughter. I don't blame them now.
...I just don't know why I fell down such a self destructive path......and I don't know why I'm still trying to find my way out of it...
My parents agreed to give me 1000$ from the savings I'm supposed to get on my 21st birthday, to pay off my credit card and bills.
words cannot express the gratification, love and respect I have for my parents. They help me out so much when I REALLY need it. ever since I moved out, things with them have never been better. I have a more deep seeded understanding of why there did the things they did, and how hard it must have been for them to deal with me at times.
its funny how only time will make you realize these things. Teenagers are so ungrateful....
I truly hope to make it up to them someday. To fully repay them for all the wonderful things, and sacrifices they have made for me. To make up for all the sleepless nights I caused when i was being selfish and full of angst.
I thought my mother hated me when i was younger. but now I realize that she was only scared shitless for me, and tried to help any way she thought she could get through to me (which with my mother, is to scream sense into you).
It truly hurts me now, to think of what a fucking bitch I was, and how selfishly I acted then. They were only trying to help me............
the medication, the therapy, the constant battles of power..it was all just them grasping at a way to save their daughter. I don't blame them now.
...I just don't know why I fell down such a self destructive path......and I don't know why I'm still trying to find my way out of it...
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my mum and i are so close now its great, so always make sure i tell her now how much i love her and appreciate her
never forget that