glassdragon

I dyed my hair red. like..a crazy natural looking red, but its kinda bright i dunno.
it looks ok, i'm happy with it.

he confuses me and makes me angry.
I DONT want to be his girlfriend, I DONT want a fucking comitment from him. I just want to be acknowledged, not ditched all the time. like, seriously, is it too much to ask to be you're bloody friend?
why do I even care if he's my friend or not..this is too stupid and i'm being irrational with this situation. normally I would just forget about the person and move on, not worth my time or effort. what makes him so bloody special? he's not special. he's a jerk.
he's bad news for me, I gotta stay away but I am drawn closer. its like I want to get hurt more and more by him.
guess we always do want what we cant have, or what is totally bad for us.

also, me and graham totally had this thrashy dance mosh pit going on at Zaphods last night!!! it was so fab, people were staring and being all like OMG COOL. I felt awesome. too bad I danced too hard for too long and then couldn't breathe and had to leave. that was totally gay. specially considering we were going to bring mina home.....shit happens I guess.
my lungs are like filled with goo and its like i'm swiming when i breathe, if that makes sense.