glassdragon

I'm a fucking wreck right now.
I really dont know what to make of all this, but I know that I have these feelings and I dont know what to do with them.
This is the first real oppertunity that has come along for me to explore things outside my relationship with graham...and fuck do I ever want to. I'm scared though, so scared. I'm so bloody attracted to this man, he's a fun guy, great personality.

we went out last night to a bar. got really drunk and were getting pretty close. we ended up making out...it was getting pretty sexual, so much intensity....get back inside and he like...disapears on me...
I shrug it off and go and see my friends, start dancing with one of my lady friends and she gets all....weird with me says "you're drunk, I'm good ok bye" and pushed me away from her and walks away....

I feel so emotionally drained right now...
and all I can think about is ben...