In one week I'll be a college graduate... but this all feels more surreal than a part of actual existence.
Over the next week I have the "the finals week of hell" which includes a 1,100 article, a 25 page paper that I have yet to start, and four final exams. But once I finish those, I am done, done, done, done, done.
And then it's on to DC (yea, I'm still in Chicago for a little while longer.)
I'm determined to make this summer in DC enjoyable. The SGDC crowd seems to be really nice from what I can tell from the group, and although I haven't had the time to be as active in the SGchicago community as I would have liked to (despite being in charge of the group until I left the site a few months ago), this summer I should have time to develop somewhat of a social life.
With all that said, what I'm even more in disbelief about is my coming move to Berkeley, CA at the end of August. While moving to DC rests well with me because I'm from Jersey and am an east coaster at heart, I've never been so far away from home for-- longer than two months before. Yes, I've been in Chicago for longer than that, but Chicago feels like it's close to New Jersey. California, on the other hand, does not.
I will have my boyfriend out there, and he's just incredible, and as long as we stay together I think I'll be able to survive whatever symptoms of homesickness I develop. Still, even with him (or without him) I'm admittedly scared about this move. I know I'm really moving for this year-long internship (which I'm very excited about), but it also feels like it could be more permenant (um, because I'm probably going to try to make it more perm.) Permenance scares me. I'm the type to move from city to city in order to feel like I'm not reaching the point where I have to "settle down." Being an adult scares the shit out of me.
Then again, there is something really alluring about the idea of becoming-- a "grown up"-- whatever that is. Have a 9-6 job(?), an outside social life, a (not long-distance) relationship... eventually have... a family of some sort?-- I can't think so far into the future, I'm only 21 for crust's sakes, but -- when making such huge moves, the future has to play into my decisions. I just want all the answers to fall onto my lap. Maybe they already have. Maybe I'm just being typically stubborn. Who knows.
Over the next week I have the "the finals week of hell" which includes a 1,100 article, a 25 page paper that I have yet to start, and four final exams. But once I finish those, I am done, done, done, done, done.
And then it's on to DC (yea, I'm still in Chicago for a little while longer.)
I'm determined to make this summer in DC enjoyable. The SGDC crowd seems to be really nice from what I can tell from the group, and although I haven't had the time to be as active in the SGchicago community as I would have liked to (despite being in charge of the group until I left the site a few months ago), this summer I should have time to develop somewhat of a social life.
With all that said, what I'm even more in disbelief about is my coming move to Berkeley, CA at the end of August. While moving to DC rests well with me because I'm from Jersey and am an east coaster at heart, I've never been so far away from home for-- longer than two months before. Yes, I've been in Chicago for longer than that, but Chicago feels like it's close to New Jersey. California, on the other hand, does not.
I will have my boyfriend out there, and he's just incredible, and as long as we stay together I think I'll be able to survive whatever symptoms of homesickness I develop. Still, even with him (or without him) I'm admittedly scared about this move. I know I'm really moving for this year-long internship (which I'm very excited about), but it also feels like it could be more permenant (um, because I'm probably going to try to make it more perm.) Permenance scares me. I'm the type to move from city to city in order to feel like I'm not reaching the point where I have to "settle down." Being an adult scares the shit out of me.
Then again, there is something really alluring about the idea of becoming-- a "grown up"-- whatever that is. Have a 9-6 job(?), an outside social life, a (not long-distance) relationship... eventually have... a family of some sort?-- I can't think so far into the future, I'm only 21 for crust's sakes, but -- when making such huge moves, the future has to play into my decisions. I just want all the answers to fall onto my lap. Maybe they already have. Maybe I'm just being typically stubborn. Who knows.
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Yeah, Oakland is looking more and more appealing. I really don't like the idea of such a long commute, but there's a good chance my boyfriend is going end up with a job that will require him to have a car (
What is your internship about?