we broke up. woohoo. note the sarcasm. but it's ok. i shall move on, as obviously i have no other choice, really.
remind me never to date a virgin again. i mean. not just a virgin sexually, but someone who has never been in a relationship with anyone else. of course they don't know what they want. can't blame them for that. heck, if they did know, they...he.. might still not want me. but at least then he'd know this sooner. it takes a lot of dating to figure out what you want from a relationship, and even then, no one really seems to know precisely.
in response to a comment in my previous entry: yes, I had a dating profile up on sg, however, i was not actively pursuing meeting others at the time. It's always fun to see who is out there, but I was in no means planning on meeting up with anyone i talked to. He definitely was... his plan was to see who was out there, meet up with them, and if he found someone better than me, to break it off with me as fast as he could. hope he now understands why this is why what he did was wrong.
anyway. i've been posting ads on craigslist now and the like, and the response is phenomenal. lots of jerks and all, but some decent guys. i really want to start dating more. even when i met the recent ex, he was honestly the only person i met from all of the responses i got to my ads last year. maybe i really need to just meet more people before i end up in a long term relationship with anybody.
well, it sucks to be alone, but it is nice to know that if i want, sometime in the future, i can date other people. still hurts to think of him dating other people, but i don't own him, nor should i, so- eh. not much i can do there, except hope that maybe he'll realize that i'm the best he's going to get. not that he can't get good women, but i think for what it's worth, i was a fairly decent girlfriend. i mean, no body is perfect, and i certainly have my faults, but i feel like i did my job being a good listener, physically attentive, even made him laugh a bit, yada yada. but maybe that's not what he's looking for... and again... i realize he doesn't have a clue what he's looking for (do I?) -- i just thought what we had was good. really good. good enough to try to make work, even with a 600 mile gap between us. he didn't feel the same. and so it's over.
maybe i'll have better luck next time.
remind me never to date a virgin again. i mean. not just a virgin sexually, but someone who has never been in a relationship with anyone else. of course they don't know what they want. can't blame them for that. heck, if they did know, they...he.. might still not want me. but at least then he'd know this sooner. it takes a lot of dating to figure out what you want from a relationship, and even then, no one really seems to know precisely.
in response to a comment in my previous entry: yes, I had a dating profile up on sg, however, i was not actively pursuing meeting others at the time. It's always fun to see who is out there, but I was in no means planning on meeting up with anyone i talked to. He definitely was... his plan was to see who was out there, meet up with them, and if he found someone better than me, to break it off with me as fast as he could. hope he now understands why this is why what he did was wrong.
anyway. i've been posting ads on craigslist now and the like, and the response is phenomenal. lots of jerks and all, but some decent guys. i really want to start dating more. even when i met the recent ex, he was honestly the only person i met from all of the responses i got to my ads last year. maybe i really need to just meet more people before i end up in a long term relationship with anybody.
well, it sucks to be alone, but it is nice to know that if i want, sometime in the future, i can date other people. still hurts to think of him dating other people, but i don't own him, nor should i, so- eh. not much i can do there, except hope that maybe he'll realize that i'm the best he's going to get. not that he can't get good women, but i think for what it's worth, i was a fairly decent girlfriend. i mean, no body is perfect, and i certainly have my faults, but i feel like i did my job being a good listener, physically attentive, even made him laugh a bit, yada yada. but maybe that's not what he's looking for... and again... i realize he doesn't have a clue what he's looking for (do I?) -- i just thought what we had was good. really good. good enough to try to make work, even with a 600 mile gap between us. he didn't feel the same. and so it's over.
maybe i'll have better luck next time.
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Anyway, I'm sorry you had a bad experience. But it sounds like it's for the best. I wish you luck!