girl_afraid

le sigh.
ive had a lot on my mind lately. whether im doing the right thing being in school.
whether an illustration degree will get me anywhere.
whether i'll make money when im out of here.
what scholarships to sign up for.
what to put in my portfolio.
how much money i owe to uncle sam.
loans. credit card. books to buy. work to do. new classes.

so my heads going to explode.
im worrying myself into a tight little knot.
i hate money. i hate it because it makes me worry so much. and there's never enough of it.

i miss being younger and not having to worry about any of this.
i miss having a feeling of safety.